rah. today's a screwed up day. really . i just wanted to go away and just be by myself. it made me all sad. maybe angry to an extent. rah. must this always happen after all i put in? have you ever considered how i feel? i guess not. but it breaks my heart to know that. holding back my tears aint an easy job. why why why must this ever happen. rah. i hate the way things are right now i really know why people say find someone who loves you more than you do. maybe it isnt that painful in that case. i really wanna think in a positive way but you have to do something about it. rah. maybe i shouldn place too much hope anyway cause maybe i'll be disappointed again..
