okay felt the sudden thing to not go sleep and to write somemore stuff.was reading shan's blog and she was talking about something about family and all, about how we often think that the being in someone else's shoes would be better, much more enjoyable and tolerable. i guess i often think that way too. like somehow this person's life seems to be all so perfect. but i guess ultimately i wouldn wanna ever swop places with anyone. life's good cause of the family i have. they've been the people who stand all my nonsense and without uncertainty, i know they're the people i can really fall back on. this strucked me cause a few days ago, i screamed at my sis for some small minor stuff and then she msged me when i left and i felt so guilty cause she said sorry when it wasnt even her fault and said " i hope we'll have a decent conversation next time okay (: ". i guess she wanted to make my day better cause i was all grumpy. that msg made me thank god for such a wonderful sis and to appreciate her even more. now, i guess when i wanna scream at her or anyone else in the family, i think twice cause i know im the one being spoilt and unreasonable.i enjoyed the times before she left for canada cause i could talk to her anytime and i missed her a whole lot when she wasnt here that i cried sometimes esp during the o level period and now that she's back, i dont treasure her and i ignore her sometimes.and this entry's only about my sis, haha imagine how long this if i wrote about the rest of my family. anyway i really thank god for such a wonderful and perfect family . ((:
and she wrote this " he understands everything and when i talk,he listens no matter how boring i am. in short, he loves me. his love isn't the "i'll-call-you-everyday",kind of love. it's the kind of love that lets me know that no matter what happens to me, no matter how ugly or stupid i may end up to be, he'll be by my side, and he'll always think i'm beautiful".. i thought this was really nice ((:
