Wednesday, November 29, 2006

yesterday was super exciting!! (((((((: its the best day out of my hols so far (((((: haha okay besides council in the afternooon where there was only gerard and me in our comm for grad night. haha and coffee bean with the cartel plus pam. PAM AND I WENT TO THE AIRPORT! ((((: so we took a bus from town to airport. journey there was long long long but it was nice nonetheless cause i had pam to talk to! (((: and we had seats so we didnt need to stand (((: haha im still so excited about yesterday! yup took quite some time and then we reached terminal one! ((: it was still early so we decided to walk around. oh on the bus, called james to ask him what time will they be there and all and told him not to tell celine that we're going. anyway yes so we walked and walked around the departure area and when we were so excited about giving her the surprise, SHE CAME TO SURPRISE US INSTEAD!! ROARS YOU KNOW! haha we wanted her to be damn shocked but in the end , we were the shocked ones. haha so talked to her family all and then, guess who we met! hahah james chen! haha none of us recognised him at first cause he looked different with his new specs. haha. and soo we decided to be mean and started testing his colour sense! haha he's damn cute. yup walked around, waited for them to check in their lugguages. and cherlyn's coming back that night too at around that time so we thought of going to see her too! ((: anyway so, celine and all the choir people went in.. felt so excited for them! ((: so then pam and i were still deciding whether we should take the last bus home or just spend the night over at the airport. haha so we decided to go find cher first but after waiting so long with corrine and her family, she still didnt come out so we decided to go off!

and then...it was already 12 something plus plus. we took a bus to town! (: haha we thought we took the wrong bus. two blur people together can get no where! bus ride back was good cause there werent anyone and it was emo-ing session again between the two of us. reached town and we decided to meet william at his house since we were actually planning to walk home from there and we would pass by his house. so we met him at his house outside and we three walked to newton circus to eat. ((: we three shared hokkien mee and then talked and talked and then we walked back to his house. and pam and i cabbed home (((: hahah reached home and was so sneaky all cause didnt wanna wake anyone up but cute rover had to come out and disturb us. hahah so we did the book thing until 4plus and we slept on the couch. ((: hahah okay thats all for the day.

THANK YOU PAMELA YEO YU HUI! ((: thanks for your company, for never failing to comfort me and for always being there. thanks for all the gossip sessions, emo-ing talks, countless "hows" during our conversations, and for just being so understanding. i dont want this hols to end cause we havent had enough fun yet! im sure things will get better for you, really. and thanks for staying up with me to do that thing last night! i love you babe!!! im gonna do the thing for you also, but yours will be much more special cause i have few years to do for you! it will prob be like a few books! manymany more outings yea? ((((: love you!

Thank you william tse for coming out even though you're sick. it was good seeing you even though it was such a short time. ((: hehe dont be so sneaky eh! loves. ((:

10:10 PM

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

alright this is quite long ago, before cher left for nepal. and she's coming back today! ((: out with huayshan and cherlyn at marche. havent seen them for so long! my favourite badminton teammates ((: still remember how after trainings on mon wed and fri, we'll gorge ourselves with food at marche and stay out late late. and how we four plus bernie spend valentine's day together and we wanted to buy flowers for each other. haha. miss the two of you! ((:

12:05 PM

Monday, November 27, 2006

yesterday the entire family attended shawn's baptism in holy cross. it was nice seeing him and all the other 105 people and the few babies getting baptised. cant imagine that 17 years ago, i was one of those babies getting baptised. mass was like 2.5 hours long! ! then went to cousin's house and then dinner together. ((: roars im bored now. last night was spent putting in lyrics for all my songs in my ipod. haha partly cause of william tse who tempted me to do that! and once you do quite a few, you'll wanna do for all!so im done with that ((:
roars i havent gone out with a lot of people yet. )): one month more of hols!

3 weeks (: thanks for the past three weeks. though there were so many things that happened, but there are still those happy memories kept within me. i know its been hard on you, but i'll be there for you if you need. thanks for the late night calls, the smses, the countless outings. you made my life a whole lot better. (: love you.

1:07 PM

Saturday, November 25, 2006

ended up going to town with bel and shamir today. then we went to borrow books from library! haha what nerds are we! but reading's fun and nice ((: then we walked and walked till we were so tired cause we were looking for the masks for grad night. haha we walked and walked and i had a craving for old chang kee till bel wanted to kill me. then we found masks and the party shop at centrepoint but they were either too ugly, too plain, too expensive. so we walked to spotlight. found plain masks there so we have to paint it. bought those and jason was being nice by coming to us to get the masks and bringing it home to paint it. thanks jason! ((:
talking to shawnlai just now was really nice and comforting. we're such emo kids together! (: its nice to know someone shares the same sentiments about certain stuff and how he shares about what he thinks about certain issues and stuff.its funnny how i knew him in sec 2 yet didnt even speak a word to him in acjc during first three months.anyway thanks a lot shawn! go get your bike soon and then we can go cycling!

When one door of happiness closes,another opens,but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.'
something i found on shawn's blog. i guess we are often held back by the past that we fail to move ahead in life. yet, again its so hard because that happiness was happiness to us in the past and memories are so hard to let go. that happiness once brought us laughter and joy and simple pleasures so now that its gone, we hope to have it again, failing to realise that its gone and we'll never have it again. and since we put so much emphasis on that and fail to release that baggage of ours, we'll never see the new happiness in front of us. thats part of life. i hope i never need to close that door of happiness and keep it within me forever.

i think im an idiot sometimes. ihatemyself. ):

12:58 AM

Thursday, November 23, 2006

and so there was council meeting today. briefing on whats gonna happen and all. got splitted into our comms. there's only 3 stage helpers now. )): i hope i dont look retarded on that day moving stuff up and down the stage and doing the games thing. haha luckily i have sheryl and gerard. and now i have to get my dress and in a week ): ANYWAY! town with my favourite people! (((: had a good time talking to them about everything and anything. im so glad i have them ((: though we spent a rather short time together today, but it was good nonetheless. ((:

CARTEL! ((: me shamir sharmaine annabel ((:

to you: good luck for your last paper tmw! ((: finally its come to an end already! ((: love you. ((:

9:08 PM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

alrights today's a nice nice day (: except for in the morning.haha mummy was pissed with me cause i couldn wake up and in the end we had to rush like crazy for dental at 9.20. haha she's super funny at those times. then WE WENT TO PERM HAIR! ((: haha a super random thing cause we were deciding what to do so yes there we went! ((: second time perming hair and this time was much longer than the other time cause there were so many people there. haha took a few hours to get it done. then went off to meet the rest of council to watch casino royale ((: havent gone out with council in a long while and i havent seen cartel in a long long while too. my hair looks kinda fake now.. i hope tmw will be better. ((:

CELINE CHOE! thanks for always being there no matter how busy you are with choir and all our monkey friends. im gonna miss you a lot when you leave for prague! )): we'll go out after you come back okay! sorry i cant make it for choir concert!! LOVES! ((:

8:19 PM

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

justfriends twice in a row. haha but it was good nonetheless. ((: im going off to the dentist early in the morning at 9.20. i hope he doesnt do funny stuff to my teeth. )): anyway WELCOME BACK AMELIA LEE QIU-YAN! (: and get well soon boy! ((:

11:50 PM

Monday, November 20, 2006

movie and lunch with annabel and charm today was good. havent talked to them in a long while. thank you both for a nice day out even though it was short. although its an incomplete cartel outing but i had fun nonetheless. (: more complaining and whining sessions to come ya?

there are times when you just cant help thinking so much. it just comes flowing and you start to wonder why you even thought of these things. maybe its cause these things are preoccupying you all the time, unknowingly. perhaps. its difficult not to judge cause human beings are made in a way where biasness evolves somehow, some way. random thought. till then.

4:51 PM

Sunday, November 19, 2006

SHARMAINE ANGELA TOH SUFEN! (: this post is dedicated to you.
thank you for always being there for me whether is it in council or not. thank you for being part of my life in council and cj. its been so nice knowing you. really. thank you for always listening to me rant and rattle on about how sucky things are and you never fail to make me feel a whole load better. you're like the nicest friend i could ever have.online conversations, sitting outside council room, going off for breaks in between council, going out for the many lunches with the rest of our cartel people, everything, you made my life a whole load better. ((: haha i still remember the first time i met you i didnt like you cause of the whole misunderstanding thing and other funny memories like how annabel and i stalked you so that we could see how he looked like and you acting as if you didnt know us. haha all these small funny stuff.also, your countless stories about your countless best friends all over singapore always never fail to make us seem so amused about your life. thank you for everything again ! ((: I LOVE YOU SHAR! ((:

2:46 PM

Saturday, November 18, 2006

today was really boring )): vivocity aint exactly the best place to go to on a weekend esp when mummy was trying to find so many things. i was so sleepy at the end of it. anyway i think i should find a job soon. haha but i doubt i'll ever get down to finding it.i havent gone out with celine jo and songyao for so long )): but i've been having fun the past week.((:

monday ((:

11:29 PM

Thursday, November 16, 2006

today's an awfully amusing and rather pathetic day. haha was supposed to meet him to eat breakfast and then watch movie. but his wallet got lost somewhere in the bus. so we went to the office to see if it was there, went to check the bus if it was still there, waited for the bus driver to come back so that we could ask him. but no we didnt find it. ): everything inside gone.so we had to go home and get his photo and stuff. thats destination no.2 then we went to destination no.3 - toapayoh. went there to cancel the atm card and ask them for a replacement and the earliest possible time to get it was like one week. haha plus he didnt have any form of identification at all. okay so went to tiongbahru to replace his ez-link card.destination no.4 trained there and turned out he couldn make one cause he had to have some form of identification. haha so we went to eat bk then decided to go watch movie. haha just when we decided on just friends, the person didnt allow us to buy cause he didnt have anything to prove he was older than 16. haha. so we decided to go great world instead.destination no.5 haha went there and there wasnt any nice movies. wah thats it la. haha we were feeling kinda bad already cause everything went wrong today. so we decided on a good year. haha sounds boring but we still watched it. stoned around, walked before the movie started. haha okay wasnt that bad a movie but it was quite boring. anyway then, when we were walking to the bus stop, realised he needed money to pay for his replacement tmw. so we walked all the way back! haha this time we were really tired and laughed at how pathetic we were! haha went to the atm machine and no money came out cause there werent any money left in the atm. haha so we went down, and couldn draw again cause they didnt have 10 dollar notes! hahah wonderful la. so we drew 50 in the end and had to go up again to deposit the 30. haha and then we took the shuttle bus back to town which was so so so freakin crowded. haha and yeah we had to walk again! roars. hahah today's a highly amusing day. it couldn have been worse! but somehow i still had fun moaning and groaning and being pathetic souls. ((: so we went to 6 places in all today. haha im awfully tired.
sorry i couldn cheer you up much and didnt really do much. i hope you're feeling better about the loss of your wallet. everything will be fine okay? cheer up! ((:

10:00 PM

Saturday, November 11, 2006

i hate myself for whats happening.
im really sorry to one person.

1:47 PM

Friday, November 10, 2006

you know what, i wanna go through this with you
i never wanna think of letting you go
but im scared i have to
i hope that day never comes
cause i still love you

11:50 PM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

yesterday was a screwed up day esp towards the end. morning was fine during lunch and the trip to kino. i had fun (: had council at 3.15 till 5 plus 6. my orienation group is nice. (: anyway then the day became screwed up. roars. but im glad its fine now. op later. im scared really. i dont wanna fumble )): i hope our video works.

i dont want a repeat of yesterday cause it made me scared.
i hope it never happens again.
the silence between made me feel like i was losing something
but im glad all's fine again.

good luck for you paper later. ((:

8:36 AM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

6th november. the nicest day of the year ((:
thank you for the nice nice surprise.
thank you for the effort you put in
thank you for the one hour spent
thank you for the planning
thank you for everything (((:
i'll remember this day always.

10:50 PM

Sunday, November 05, 2006

the past week has been really good. ((: except for chinese exam which was crap cause i really couldn stay focused. was doodling all over my paper. thoroughly enjoyed myself every day of the week. ((: anyway yesterday was the nicest thing ever! ((: my uncle and aunt's 30th wedding anniversary. it was really really really sweet ((: okay it was a mass held at sji chapel. so the tans arrived really early to decorate the wedding car, the chapel with flowers and prepared our singing for mass. ((: the cousins were all dressed up for the occasion (: outside the chapel were the family photo of my uncle's family and there were photos of his weddding back then. waited for guests to arrived and then mass started. started with the couple proceeding into church with the opening song and then mass begin. the whole mass was beautiful and the chapel was so pretty too. friar michael celebrated mass and he made it really nice. the part where they renewed their marriage vows, the part where uncle and aunt gave his speech, his youngest daughter's letter to them and all made everyone cry esp the tans. its so sweet how two people can spend such a long time together (: the mass was followed by a reception at the brother's house next door and the food was really good ((: hehe then saw bro paul there too and talked to him. hmm, i love this kinda occasions where the tans are brought together again. anyway happy anniversary! ((: okay pics below

TAN COUSINS INCOMPLETE

SJI CHAPEL

ELDEST COUSIN (:

TWINS !!!((: MY DAD AND BERNIE'S DAD HAHA THEY'RE SO CUTE WEARING THE SAME SHIRT

COUSINS AGAIN BUT STILL IMCOMPLETE

SJI CHAPEL ONCE AGAIN

MY SIS AND BERNIE

ME AND MY SIS

ME AND MY SIS AGAIN (: MY PRETTY SISTER

BERNIE AND MY SIS

BERNIE AND ME

4:58 PM

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

had council in the morning which i was late by an hour cause i overslept. oh wells. haha planned for orientation. met him in school for a while then left to meet shamir bel and charm to eat. then went to christy's house to do pw. my phone died on me in the morning and shamir was nice to sit with me at the bus stop to let me use his phone and waited till i got the address then he left. anyway went there and i got lost in her area. i took like 45 mins to find her house. and i rang two wrong door bells, had to borrow someone's phone, not only to call but exchange sim cards cause i couldn remember any of their numbers except for christy but her phone died. what a good day. roars! grumpy today!!

i dont know what to think now, who to believe. im just confused and scared.i hope what they said aint true.

9:45 PM