Tuesday, October 31, 2006

its amazing how this morning i brought rover for a walk, bathed, changed, packed my bag and got out of the house in 20 mins. daddy was screaming at me to be out of the door by 7.20 if not i would have to go school myself. haha i made it! ((: anyway op was really crap for our grp. the skit wasnt well-prepared so we ended up not doing it. roars. island cremery with the girls from t33 was good. major gossip session. ((: hehe then town with pam!cel and her pierced. i was too scared to pierce anymore. then dinner with my boy, did work then home. ((:

i love the walks down the 'dark path',the conversations that we have everytime that when we look back, we start laughing at how retarded we were, the little stuff that we're thinking inside but never say until we reach home, everything is just so perfect now.

12:06 AM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

was dreading pw meeting today actually. woke up at twelve plus and dad sent me to lalee's house. so sleepy. hehe. anyway the four of us were really so dead and didnt feel like doing anything cause lalee's house is so conducive for slacking. so we did out skit and did our powerpoint then we went to eat green bean soup made by lalee's mom. haha her sis is damn damn cute!!anyway we sat outside talking, and its like the first time the four of us ever talked so much! we talked about everything, from annoying people to all about our form tutor. didnt know we all felt the same about the same issues! we are so gonna go out together during the hols together with the rest like cheryl and boon! its funny how we spent the whole year together in the same class, yet never really talked. wished we talked earlier then this yr wouldn have been so wasted!!im gonna make full use of the next yr and i hope its gonna be fun! ((: I LOVE MY PW GROUP! ((: hehe and huixin's as emo as me! ((: we're gonna be emo partners from now on!! MONDAY TALK OKAY HX!

I LOVE POH HUIXIN !!!!! ((:

the late night calls,countless smses,learning something new about you everyday,makes me less sad and emo everyday. thank god i found you.((: you said the nicest ever thing today - one boy, one girl.(:

9:36 PM

Friday, October 27, 2006

pam and meryl came over this morning to play with rover! ((: hehe and i only woke up when they got here. so sorry! yup, played and played with him till lunch then we went to town to eat then meryl left for school cause of odac. haha crazy odacers. so it was me and pam. haha we're such emo kids, always lamenting over so many many things and being so sad about everything. so we went shopping! haha walked and walked till like 6 plus i think then pam left

met "my fairytale". we walked from borders to somerset then home. though we didnt spend as much time as the other time, but i really enjoyed your company.was quite surprised you called me to meet me. ((: you made me a happy girl today! ((: the bus rides, laughing at pictures in your video, buying your video the other day,watching deathnote, walking up and down wheelock deciding whether to buy or not and flipping the coin, walking back home, sitting at the playground talking, thanks for making my days ((: what you said in the many many msgs today really made me smile a lot.you're really my fairytale. ((: im glad i got to know you. really. i hope things stay this way always.

AND TO
PAMELA YEO YU HUI!((: thanks for everything, for listening to my rubbish and nonsense. please do not ever think of leaving cj cause i'll die without you in class! really really, my life in cj wouldn have been so bearable if not for you.sitting beside you every day never fails to make me not so grumpy and not so pms-y esp after 12 o clock everyday ((:its funny how we were classmates in ij yet we never really talked. im glad now we're good friends. dont think so much about that thing okay? i'll be here if you need someone to talk to, someone to emo with and i'll let you listen to all my emo and oldies songs in my ipod.. love you a lot girl! ((:

imfallingforyoumoreeachday.butimscaredofwhatwillhappensoonwhenyoumakeyourdecision.

11:17 PM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

i think im so screwed. argh. why why why.i've lost people's trust, i've disappointed so many. i dont like the feeling really.
today was closing ceremony for j1s. i guess i finally know why im here. although im not really happy, but perhaps this is the place for me. its only a year more and i'll be stepping out of the gates of cj. i hope the year ahead will be much better. im sick of regretting. ):
but 25/10 made me a happy girl! (:(:(:
but then again.. who knows what will happen. ):

10:03 PM

Monday, October 23, 2006

school was really really boring today. maybe i wont go on wed. slept through econs, stoned during chinese. only useful thing i did was pw. h2 lesson at one was cancelled also cause i was the only one there. but today, for many, was a nerve wrecking day. the results on the plasma screen was a shock to many cause we didnt know what the list meant. oh wells. i really hope our class can move up together.

life aint smooth sailing all the time. yet when it becomes so simple and basic, we long for some excitement or some obstacle in life. yet when life's all complicated and confusing, we long for it to become simple. we never are contented with what we have. oh wells. till then.

11:12 PM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

town with belle sharm and a little abit of sham. haha and oh charm too. talking to them never fails to amuse me and brighten my sad days. it feels like i could talk to them forever cause we never ever run out of topics. i can imagine the three of us (Sharm and belle) sitting in some place when we're old and frail and still talking so much to each other. i dont feel like going to school tmw and for the rest of the weeks. )): its so boring and lessons are unbearable. and oh oh we have show and tell tmw. haha sounds like bring your dog kind. ah. roars! ):

SMILED(:

one boy, one girl

He finally gave in to his friend's girlfriend
When she said, "there's someone you should meet"
At a crowded restaurant way cross town
He waited impatiently
When she walked in their eyes met
and they both stared
And right there and then everyone else disappeared but

One boy, one girl, two hearts beating wildly
To put it mildly it was love at first sight
He smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away
This was the day they'd waited for all their lives
And for a moment the whole world revolved
Around one boy and one girl

In no time at all they were standing there
In the front of a little church
In front of their friends and family
Repeating those sacred words
Preacher said, "son kiss your bride"
and he raised her veil
Like the night they met time just stood still

He was holding her hand when the doctor looked up and grinned
"congratulations, twins"

11:26 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

you say you can make your own decision no matter what the circumstances might be but what if i say circumstances did not allow me to make my decision? i dont like the way things are worked but yet, conforming becomes a necessity. and that makes me seem like i accept the way things are. i dont like many things about the whole system, yet is there any other way out? it just boils down to people thinking defiance is the main reason why i actually refuse to do certain things. i know i may be stuborn and want my way at times, but sometimes i really cant find a reason why people do certain things. its as if testing our intelligence and the way things are handled seem to fit in under the word stupidity, there werent much thought given into it. if i didnt have a choice i wouldn be in this predicament.different mindsets, different goals, different opinions, different thinking.its time to leave.

on friday was the j2's graduation ceremony. looking at how there were tears,smiles,laughter, hugs, i wonder how each of their lives have been in cj. i wonder what my emotion will be next yr. nostalgic? emotion-less? regretful? elated? i dont know really. i didnt feel anything like how the rest of the CA councillors did.maybe the next one year wil do something. perhaps. somehow that word seems like it will never happen. oh wells.

8:42 PM

and so cjc had open house yesterday where the other jcs also had theirs. ours werent fantastic but i had fun somehow. playing badminton, welcoming people, bringing them on tours around the school, walking around with belle, seeing my juniors and all. but i was really tired after when belle charm shamir and sharmaine and i went to town to eat. haha we were all like dead. but when we were going home, we just sat at the mrt and talked and talked. the conversation was interesting and sparked off many stuff.haha. ah i cant imagine what life would be in council without the four of you.

so awkward.
i dont know how to spark off a conversation
but oh wells
maybe i'll never see you again.
unless...

1:28 PM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

one word. roars.
i never wanna face this situation again
the tears, the glomminess, the unpredictbility of it all
im hoping for the best for everyone.
esp you.
you know how much your friendship means to me.
stay strong ya?
i'll always be here for you.

6:14 PM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

okay just sent bro off to keith's house cause they're heading off to malaysia tmw. three friends off to kl to shop. haha lucky them. i wanna go too! ): oh oh oh and ice cream mooncake is so damn yummy! haha ate one just now and its heavenly! ((: hehe damn random. alright its a holiday tmw cause the h1 people are having exams. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE! ((:

11:59 PM

Saturday, October 07, 2006

alright spent my day going on a car ride to various places. haha and i went to visit CAROL NGUYEN! haha havent seen her in a long while.i went to return her some stuff. anyway im getting bored these days with absolutely nothing to do besides watching tv and going online.and i cant go study with cel and charm cause there's nothing for me to study and they will say im distracting them. haha.
we're never happy with what we have for long. we seek and pursue something that we perceive to be better and more meaningful for us. yet when we realised its not, we want to turn back and get back something from the past, its gone, no more there. everyone moves with time and sometimes when we dont wanna move with time, we get left behind and everyone's getting on with life just as fine but not us.
three more weeks of school. im hoping time will pass faster. i dont know whats wrong with me. i just cant accept things easily. i know these two years are gonna be hard. but one year is gone already, what is one more?

anyway good luck to those taking the h1 paper esp to 1t33!!

3:18 PM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

okay these few days i have absolutely nothing to do. haha i went to the library today after the super long council meetnig with belle and sharm that we decided to go canteen. sorry belle! hehe anyway today is a happy day. anyway just now clicked on my class blog and realised how much i missed them. roars. 2006 is coming to an end and i must say it has been a trying year and im glad its coming to an end. on the contrary, i miss 2005.. here are some pics of the stuff that happened..

convention pics!!

10:47 PM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

life's been so nice and enjoyable that i hope this will last forever. there's nothing to worry about at all. yesterday was spent at chij kc funfair cause my aunt was selling western food so we all went to help. hah spent my time frying chicken and french fries. quite fun but super oily! haha then went to help my uncle at the games stall with bernie. hahah was super tiring picking up all the balls. but had fun cause bernie was there too. we went to play the game next door cause we wanted to win the prize which was so pretty and we won it!! ((: haha then walked around, ate a lot alot then off to church! hohoho today was even better. since we went to church already i slept the entire day with mooncake eating in between and then off to a family party in the evening. i have been eating mooncake every day that it feels like mooncake festival everyday. haha. alright im bored. roars.

11:03 PM