Wednesday, August 30, 2006

roars. everyday is filled with stuff and i have barely any time left to do other stuff. i spent like only a few hours at home and that is to sleep and the rest is spent in school. its even worse if i stay back for night study. but oh wells, seeing everyone study in school, im beginning to press the panic button. a bit too late actually but argh.
haha on a crap side, james chen is super funny! if you ever read this, i win you james chen! ((: hehe what happened yesterday was classic (:

roars. i cant help but feel so irritated,annoyed with myself. for being such a failure in everything. goodbye.

but its time to face the truth, i will never be with you.

10:54 PM

Friday, August 25, 2006

okay today was a blast (: hehe i managed to wake up in time to get to school for morning mass although last night was really exhausting cause of council and night study. yesterday was just crazy staying till late to stick everything up and rehearsal. but today was just perfect cause we saw our hard work paying off esp for the deco and concert. yeah prayer service turned out fine and im so so so so glad the reflection powerpoint worked as i wanted it to with the music and everything! ((((: everything else was just good and the performances were good except for a few gliches here and there. went town with song yao and charm after that and then to novena then home. daddy's birthday today and his twin which is my uncle too! (: HAPPY 53rd BIRTHDAY TWINS! (: although i doubt they'll ever read this. its night study all the way from now on cause i need to get through this year and do well. today's a happy day! ((: i dont know why either. till then! cheers! (:

10:14 PM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

okay this is gonna be short cause i just spent a gazillion hours doing the powerpoint for teachers day. it better not get rejecteD!!
anyway went to delta to play badminton just now. was quite fun since i havent played in a long time not counting the other day with yan weiqing and haowen. then james lost his phone and wallet!! stupid person who stole it! then yeah went home. okay im really tired. good bye. i'll upload the photos of badminton team soon. till then.

1:27 AM

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

there are lots of thoughts in my head now. the past few days have been crazy. with promos coming up, everyone's starting to panic and start mugging. i hope i dont retain i hope i dont have to drop a subject.mugging at james' house was quite productive.

anyway i was just thinking its funny how we all had our heroes in cartoons when we were young and now it seems to have died off. but i think that somewhere out there we still have our heroes but they arent those we had the last time. they can be right beside us now or perhaps someone we know of. they may be someone who earns our respect, posseses some trait which we admire. i do think my hero exist.

crazy enough, i think im starting to enjoy school. see the word enjoy. hahaa and not dread. i guess i've accepted the fact. its a long time but i still dont know what im doing here actually.im actually going with the flow and i hate it. but what other choice do i have. bounded by circumstances, i cant turn back time, i cant change my decision then. roars. till then.

11:34 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

yesterday after the walkathon thing,i went back to ij for handover ceremony. when i received alicia's sms a few days ago about the handover and who was in the new council, it striked me that just a yr ago, i handed down to the present council. as i looked at the new council, i realised that prefectorial board made up more than half of the memories i had in ij and what made it so whole and so memorable. though its no longer called prefectorial board, but it still holds the same motto " noblesse oblige". the council that took over, they were just new prefects when i was in sec 4 and seeing the m grow over the year and then finally taking over made me really happy for them. council realy brings back many memories and i'll never ever forget each one of them, each event,each and an every single prefect.im glad to have led the board. (: congrats to council 06-07. (:

1:01 AM

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

im thinking about the badminton team again. i just love the team so much even though our team is so small that we dont even have enought to form a full team. its just the times spent together, doing small little stuff, sitting around and talking and going through trainings together. i really miss those times before competition when within such a short time, the team came together and built such a strong bond. from mere strangers to best buddies, best teammates. i'll always remember my first training when so many things happened and i was clueless about everything but now im glad i didnt give up and continued to stay in the team. because of badminton, i've found friends whom i treasure so much. its not only the girls. i was quite touched when songyao came with the girls team to support us when we went to find mr liu.for the boys, from acquaintances, we became studying mates. its never easy to part. but now we realy have to. i know i should have stood up agaisnt what mr liu said about me and council, im really sorry i didnt. when we left that day, and i saw both of you in tears, i realised how much badminton meant to the three of us. im glad badminton was ever part of my life in cj.

well, im glad to realise that life in council aint that bad after all. it seemed like i'll just breeze through my one yr of council term at first but now i beg to differ. im not gonna waste my time but make a difference somehow somewhere. im beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. perhaps i'll achieve my goal, perhaps i wont. but i wanna know i've tried.

i dont wanna fail anymore.as a person. i dont wanna keep disappointing.it hurts knowing you've tried so hard yet failed.when disappointment sets in and i feel like a failure. its doing myself injustice.but yet its so hard to get back on my feet, to keep moving on. its when you've failed that you feel you'll fail anyway. but argh. i dont care anymore. alright

on the brighter note, day out with council people was good. (: movie and company was good! (: till then...

9:57 PM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

okay i havent blogged for some time. school's been taking up so much of my time. anyway school's been fine. oh oh stayover at twin's house with huayshan last weekend was super fun! (: had a great time catching up with each other's lives and laughing at all the stuff we did before. miss them so much!! anyway yesterday after council meeting, went to marina sq with annabelle, charmaine, shamir and sharmaine. ate at carl's junior and then spent a long time there. omg haha yesterdya was just hilarious and super fun! talked about loads of stuff and yeah stayed till quite late. oh oh we just stood at the mrt station getting damn excited about some stuff. haha damn funny la.then went to meet gillian choo and the rest at prata house at about 11pm cause gilian left today. glad i got to meet up with her before she left! ((: went for mass today cause sis was singing in the choir then went delta to play badminton. haha okay life's been doing good for me, at least for now.

celine choe and haowen: eh there's nothing between me and him. seriously! stop teasing both of us alreayd la!

11:57 PM

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