Saturday, June 10, 2006
tell me why things are happening this way. a whole load of emotions in me that i fail to handle and break down. i really dont know how to explain things and no one can really understand how i feel. there's no one to tell whom will really understand either. its all within me and im afraid i cant take it any longer. few months back i knew i was going to regret my decision yet i still pushed for it and now im feeling the effects finally.it was coming i know but i was being optimistic and looking on the brighter side. but now, there isnt a brighter side to look at. there isnt anyting to look forward to and everything's just in a mess. i really hate things now.but i cant change things anyway. what do i have to do? live with it? i dont know. i think i've changed. i dont care about anything now. i really dont. i just do what i want. perhaps its anger and the inbility to change things. i cried, i really did.
10:35 PM
