Friday, May 19, 2006
tests are pretty much screwing up my life these days. im so last min, studying for the test a day before and not being able to finish studying. chem test yesterday was atrocious, i think im gonna fail. i've got so many red marks already im so dead. roars! yesterday waited for song yao and the rest to go study but they all pangseh so song yao and i went to toa payoh macs. stupid haowen say she going then she just went off. roars! then joanna didnt come to school. haha bus trip there was hilarious anyway. song yao and all his nonsense. haha suaning throughout.reached there and studied econs, had to study econs , do the project and do chinese essay. all in such a short period of time. then yen kiat and james came too. studied till 8.30 then went home.
today was just a crap day. all the periods made me super irritated. hahaha pamela and i were really agitated during gp that we burst out laughing like crazy idiots. haha laughed and we realised we like the same type of songs! hahah kept listening to the same song over and over again! haha then econs test. totally gonna fail man. had council meeting after school then went to island creamery with charmaine then to town to meet bernie and we ate pepper lunch! hehe walked around talked a lot. saw tommy after a really long while. havent seen him since we changed schools. then charmaine and i went back to toa payoh cause we wanted to study but in the end didnt cause we went to meet shi ting and serene and talked more.
hehe love charmaine lots man, so fun spending time together cause she understands how i feel and its feels really good to have someone on the same wavelength as you and even knows exactly what you're referring to without saying it out explicitly. thank god for her in cj man. my eleven yr friend (:
yep i think i've given up. its time to. i've been unhappy for the dumbest reasons. life hasnt been going too well and you have been making it worse. i've got so many other things to worry about.a part of me still goes out to you but i guess im trying to forget day by day so it wouldnt hurt.why am i so unhappy everyday? everything's a mess now. not a single thing is going well. why cant there still be a badminton team? why cant things change for the better? why ? i wanna be a happier person. but for now i know i am not.
10:50 PM