Saturday, April 22, 2006
yesterday. stayed in school to do the campaign thing but left half way cause haowen was waiting for me in the extension. went there. the badminton guys were there too.talked and then studied at the round tables. haha they're quite fun to study with. song yao and haowen were having their own conversation at the next table, talking about their entire life story and stuff.james and i were laughing at them cause they talk and talk then yen kiat kept asking them to shut up. bunz came too. studied till 9 then went home but the rest were still there.
today was just a crap day. i dont know why. there was so many things happening. things didnt go the way i want and thought it would be. im lagging behind in lit lecture cause i havent finished the book and just copied everything that was on the slide. but it helps that bunz says he's lost too! haha. had chinese,break,gp,pw and econs lecture. econs test was a flop. so much for studying the night before. haiz i seriously need to study. i just hope i dont get a single digit for it. went to meet joshua for the band duty thing then went off to eat and then for badminton in the hall. had friendly match against hwachong today. match ended really late and then went to meet my campaign group to do stuff but got chased off by the security guard. charmaine amelia and i were playing catching with the guard all around school .haha it was quite fun actually (:. then went to meet the badminton team at toapayoh. sat at the foodcourt then went off to try getting into the pool and lan place but failed. haha they're super funny, walked a lot cause we couldnt decide where to go at all. in the end we ended up at the bus stop cause haowen and nadia wanted to go home so we waited for them to go up the bus but when the bus came, haha they decided not to go up.chased song yao like crazy around the busstop cause he disturbed me! haha then all of us decided to go find charmaine. then after that cant remember what happened. song yao and siyang went home with hw and nad while bunz and james went arcade and i went to find charmaine. anyway fun day out. haha its rare friday's are spent out.
to haowen and joanna: eh both of you, my beloved teammates although you both always dont wanna acknowledge me! haha thanks for everything man!! trainings been damn fun because of the both of you. you both never fail to cheer me up with your never ending plans and stuff! love you both!
i dont know why but im so confused now esp what happened over the two days.glad at least i talked to you a fair bit.i was happy but i guess after thinking a lot, im disturbed now. you seem nonchalent. i seem like im going towards something thats gonna disappear anytime soon. im scared of whats gonna happen. im scared of the end. im scared it turns out the way i dont want it to be. things are starting to change and it scares me. i hope there will be a happy ending cause im really true. i hope the end wont hurt.
im confused about something else too. not someone but something. i dont even know why im putting in effort. i dont even know why im there for. so much time wasted. is it worth it? im tried hard to manage my time and now this happens.but im glad im part of it nonetheless.
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