the past week or two has really been hectic. i havent been coping well with things and i seem to be rushing through loads of work each day. but im so tired each day also. my days are really long and when i get home im too tired to do anything and just fall asleep. there's so many things to do. badminton, schoolwork, preusem , council. but at least there's something for me to do. okay im contradicting myself. the past few tests were pretty crap cause i havent been paying attention in class. econs was like crap and math today was atrocious. hope i get marks from the questions james taught me. but its been pretty good studying everyday after training in school till nine plus. at least i get some work done and its fun studying with the rest of the team. there was friendly match against uwc today and their school's nice . ((: waited for daddy to pick me buns and james up after that. i hope tmw's gonna be a good day. yesterday was just disastrous. thought i lost my charger and got scolded yesterday too. i really hope tmw's gonna be good.
today is filled with happiness. i got to talk to you again throughout the car ride. ((: it just makes my day. although its just one-sided but im still glad i got to know you. (: tmw again! ((: things are so unsure at many times. sometimes i just wanna shout out loud and say what i really feel inside. its killing me. everything seems to be so surfaced and oftentimes i do things without thinking. ijust do it cause i have to. where's the sense of willingness? a sense of fear builds up in me at times and i dont know what to do. its hard to really say how i feel but i dont know. i think im going on the wrong path . move back on track petrina. i seem to care alot about what people think of me and that sucks. i never used to really care. why.
come to think of it, i miss a lot of things now. i miss ij , i miss my friends in ij, i miss 4/2 , i miss my prefects, i miss the things we used to do in ij, i miss the times we used to do dumb stuff and just had fun, i miss my 3 friends , i miss aileen, i miss a lot of things. well, there's nothing i can do but place them close to my heart . ):
