Saturday, April 29, 2006

could go to school later today but went to school and met haowen cause she went really early. went library and that song yao was there too. haha he mad one yesterday go home early to play dota then today come so early to study. anyway yeah talked alot. then had school till 3 then had to go for match at innova jc. played two matches there. i really think my seniors are really nice. xiaoyan weiqin marie nadya sam fong all. its so easy to talk to them about anything and everything. i guess thats what makes the team special to me. i dont know how badminton will be like after they leave.maybe i wont even be in badminton anymore. after the match, went to causeway pt with haowen jo and nadya to eat. then talked at kfc. love talking and being with the both of them. they make school much more enjoyable. i hope we stay as close as ever.

i dont know whats gonna happen. i hope u dont get the wrong idea. because it is all about you and only you.

tag replies:

haowen: yes i know. though we've only known each other for like a short one month plus but
it seems like i've known you since a long time ago. i hope the three of us will stay close
even if there aint gonna be a team or if one of us decides to quit because you know how
much i treasure the two of you! we better go out soon, just the three of us and dont
pangseh me during night study!
joanna: yeah haha j&p project going well i think. haha today was really fun! ((:
aileen: OI MY BESTIE! yes you better make time for me and stop going out with you pikachu!
missing you loads
darrick: hahah thanks a lot! all the best to you for council too! im sure you'll make it in! ((: talk
to you soon!
huayshan: hey yup looking forward to seeing you too!!!

12:12 AM

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

the past week or two has really been hectic. i havent been coping well with things and i seem to be rushing through loads of work each day. but im so tired each day also. my days are really long and when i get home im too tired to do anything and just fall asleep. there's so many things to do. badminton, schoolwork, preusem , council. but at least there's something for me to do. okay im contradicting myself. the past few tests were pretty crap cause i havent been paying attention in class. econs was like crap and math today was atrocious. hope i get marks from the questions james taught me. but its been pretty good studying everyday after training in school till nine plus. at least i get some work done and its fun studying with the rest of the team. there was friendly match against uwc today and their school's nice . ((: waited for daddy to pick me buns and james up after that. i hope tmw's gonna be a good day. yesterday was just disastrous. thought i lost my charger and got scolded yesterday too. i really hope tmw's gonna be good.

today is filled with happiness. i got to talk to you again throughout the car ride. ((: it just makes my day. although its just one-sided but im still glad i got to know you. (: tmw again! ((:
things are so unsure at many times. sometimes i just wanna shout out loud and say what i really feel inside. its killing me. everything seems to be so surfaced and oftentimes i do things without thinking. ijust do it cause i have to. where's the sense of willingness? a sense of fear builds up in me at times and i dont know what to do. its hard to really say how i feel but i dont know. i think im going on the wrong path . move back on track petrina. i seem to care alot about what people think of me and that sucks. i never used to really care. why.

come to think of it, i miss a lot of things now. i miss ij , i miss my friends in ij, i miss 4/2 , i miss my prefects, i miss the things we used to do in ij, i miss the times we used to do dumb stuff and just had fun, i miss my 3 friends , i miss aileen, i miss a lot of things. well, there's nothing i can do but place them close to my heart . ):

10:32 PM

Saturday, April 22, 2006

yesterday. stayed in school to do the campaign thing but left half way cause haowen was waiting for me in the extension. went there. the badminton guys were there too.talked and then studied at the round tables. haha they're quite fun to study with. song yao and haowen were having their own conversation at the next table, talking about their entire life story and stuff.james and i were laughing at them cause they talk and talk then yen kiat kept asking them to shut up. bunz came too. studied till 9 then went home but the rest were still there.

today was just a crap day. i dont know why. there was so many things happening. things didnt go the way i want and thought it would be. im lagging behind in lit lecture cause i havent finished the book and just copied everything that was on the slide. but it helps that bunz says he's lost too! haha. had chinese,break,gp,pw and econs lecture. econs test was a flop. so much for studying the night before. haiz i seriously need to study. i just hope i dont get a single digit for it. went to meet joshua for the band duty thing then went off to eat and then for badminton in the hall. had friendly match against hwachong today. match ended really late and then went to meet my campaign group to do stuff but got chased off by the security guard. charmaine amelia and i were playing catching with the guard all around school .haha it was quite fun actually (:. then went to meet the badminton team at toapayoh. sat at the foodcourt then went off to try getting into the pool and lan place but failed. haha they're super funny, walked a lot cause we couldnt decide where to go at all. in the end we ended up at the bus stop cause haowen and nadia wanted to go home so we waited for them to go up the bus but when the bus came, haha they decided not to go up.chased song yao like crazy around the busstop cause he disturbed me! haha then all of us decided to go find charmaine. then after that cant remember what happened. song yao and siyang went home with hw and nad while bunz and james went arcade and i went to find charmaine. anyway fun day out. haha its rare friday's are spent out.

to haowen and joanna: eh both of you, my beloved teammates although you both always dont wanna acknowledge me! haha thanks for everything man!! trainings been damn fun because of the both of you. you both never fail to cheer me up with your never ending plans and stuff! love you both!

i dont know why but im so confused now esp what happened over the two days.glad at least i talked to you a fair bit.i was happy but i guess after thinking a lot, im disturbed now. you seem nonchalent. i seem like im going towards something thats gonna disappear anytime soon. im scared of whats gonna happen. im scared of the end. im scared it turns out the way i dont want it to be. things are starting to change and it scares me. i hope there will be a happy ending cause im really true. i hope the end wont hurt.

im confused about something else too. not someone but something. i dont even know why im putting in effort. i dont even know why im there for. so much time wasted. is it worth it? im tried hard to manage my time and now this happens.but im glad im part of it nonetheless.

12:59 AM

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

had morning run today and oh man i ran 11 rounds today. a super big deal to me. 2.4 was like crap. horrible timing. anyway had chem lecture today! ((: hehe. school was boring as usual. after school went to meet mrs tan for the pre u sem thing. the skit thing is all so fun and exciting but there are 6 people and only 4 will be the main people. but they're really nice people and its fun talking to them. then went to meet haowen and joanna. haowen is damn damn funny man! haha did stupid things. decided to go library and study with charmaine cause that was our plan as usual but haowen went missing. did my lit essay then got interupted cause the guys asked us to go up and play but in the end we didnt have racket so couldnt play. we got irritated so went down to the canteen to study and eat. omg perry and amos are hilarious. kept doing funny stuff. anyway yeah did until 6 plus. got chased off by the guard to the other side of the canteen. did more work and haowen left so left with joanna and me. at 7, the badminton guys came down and did work too. did all the way till 8.15 then daddy picked me up. marie was there too. i think i'll stay back everyday to do work besides training days cause at least i do work and not watch tv or end up playing with rover. haha. today's really fun man with joanna and haowen. they make my day and brighten up my oh-so-dreadful day but saying all the funny and stupid stuff!love their company! ((: haha. having friendly match tmw with meridien jc. hope i'll play well. i need to buck up i need to train hard. its only gonna be one month more with the team ): train hard petrina.

10:57 PM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

alright on wed and thurs went for the asia pacific business summit 2006 at grand hyatt with four others like amelia dizon, zehra, shawn lee and bern. it was from 8.30 till 6 for both days and at first i was kinda dreading it cause i didnt know the other four well at all. didnt even know zehra and shawn till the conference itself. hehe but as things went along, they were really nice and managed to talk to them !!((: hehe they're really funny and so fun to be with them. the whole conference was kinda insightful and learnt quite a lot of stuff. alot of important people were there like minister for eduacation and other ceos of different companies.hehe lunch was super good. we had the whoole table to ourselves so started talking nonsense. second day was better cause we knew what exactly was gonna happen .during one of the sessions we had to split up and i went with zehra. hahah she's really funny man! we couldn stop laughing once cause we realised that people were falling asleep! hah and we were trying to pay attention by eating loads of sweets! hehe but the conference was good cause we got loads of info for the topic for the pre u sem.
went for church visitation with the entire tan family. and as usual, aunt chartered a bus for our family. and yup family outin again! ((: had dinner on the bus . yummy food. visited 5 churches. hah it was so fun on the bus as usual with everyone telling jokes and lame stuff. hehe.

hehe you replied me! ((:

12:23 AM

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

last few days were really busy. had council camp on fri sat and sun. on fri had to skip training to go for the council thing. was put in faith group cause i put ca and sa in my form. anyway after the council thing, went to look for the badminton team on the track there. they were having a talk by mr liew. beforethat they were sprinting. anyway waited for them to end then went out with xiao yan weiqing joanna and joseph for dinner at crystal jade! ((: hehe was so fun. then went school for council camp on sat till sun. on sun had to go for mass after the camp with poon amelia sean and jonathon. haha we were falling asleep during gospel cause it was really long!! and we were so tired and hungry. went to eat after that. yesterday had gym training then went for the lotus folding thing and had photo taking also. today was really fun. hehe had no pe cause it was the guys turn to do the five items so we went back to class and did nothing.haha been talking to charmaine a lot these few days. esp during the night of the camp where we stayed at the corridor and talked till almost 3 am. love her so much man. my coming to 11 yr friend! ((: hehe we have a common issue now. anyway her classis really nice!! went library with her after school then went off to meet augustine at far east then home! no school tmw! cause im going to the asia pacific business summit tmw and on thurs. gonna be a really long day.. hope its gonna be interesting. ((: life's been good these days except that i need to catch up on my work.

life's been happy with you
cause your smile brightens my day ((:
not going for training tmw ):

11:05 PM

Thursday, April 06, 2006

school's been pretty fun these days. hehe i dont know why but i kinda look forward to school. didnt go for morning run on tues and felt really guilty cause its part of the contract and i would be putting the team at risk. still owe marie rounds. anyway wed had friendly match against innova jc. the guys all played well even the sji guys came down to play also. but i lost my match ): i guess its time to train harder. morning run again today but i guess its a nice feeling when you're together with the team. love the team alot ((: hehe. haha boon's really funny! we do stupid things together man. today we walked all the way to the bus stop, spent a long time deciding where to go and in the end walked back to school. haha. didnt go watch si yang run today, felt quite bad. anyway i hope tmw's gonna be nice ((:

its been awhile since i talked to you
i guess you're avoiding me
i see you in school everyday
but it just makes things worse.

9:58 PM

Monday, April 03, 2006

today was quite a bad day. had math and econs test which im totally gonna fail so more remedials for me. school ended an hour earlier for me cause i faster finished my zuo wen and left with boon. haha we went to the library to look for poon and all and got chased out by the librarian twice cause we were making lots of noise. haha anyway boon went with me to acjc! ((: haha okay that totally made my day ! when we went back ac, it was school over already and all of them were either in void deck and staffroom there! oh man saw ALOT of people and i miss them so much!!!! hugged them all and talked to alot of them. i totally miss them man.esp when i saw aileen and amanda wanted to cry!! argh. totally miss acjc. met clement and passed him the calculator. felt quite bad cause he changed his study venue to nearer to my house so it was more convenient for me. but anyway yeah met him talked to him for a while and then left to talk to the others. met my SB1 classmates!! it felt super good to see them all again! saw julian yanglie keith peter choo and the rest and my og mates!!! yixuan weijoe sara shiyan shawn lai and all. argh!!! miss acjc so much! )): anyway boon and i left to go ikea to eat! ((: haha and gossip more and more then left for home. she came with me to get dog food for rover and then boon went home. hehe its so nice going out with her! ((: lovely day back in acjc (:

10:08 PM

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