Thursday, March 02, 2006
okay so hanyang helped me check and i got cj!! alright talked to clarissa on the phone just now for a long time and she kinda made me apprehensive about going to cj now, telling me there's no more girl's team for badminton and something about the person in her class also but nevermind i've got a feeling that im gonna like it in cj. but im kinda missing my class especially after simren msged me this morning to tell me to go back to school straightaway cos claire's got something for me and also after i read michelle's testi ! but oh wells. i've gotta move on. i'll definitely miss lots of stuff in acjc though, like going for morning assembly in the hall singing the school song, going for gp lessons together as a class, math class teasing michelle about her math bf, econs lecture laughing at hussain talking non-stop, milo bottle!! , visit to the cafe to eat waffle w ice cream, going to the library to sleep and everything else! today's such an emo day.roars! but im happy i got cj though.
everything's change and i think im moving on. im trying hard. i once hoped but i guess hope diminishes over time, i hope it will. seeing you in school wasnt what i really needed cause that hurt me more somehow. clarissa said something that made me realise that she understood how i was feeling. why so long? when's it gonna fade away. it hurts so much because disappointment overwhelms. oh wells. move on pet.
but yet its so difficult. i miss the past. i miss ij , i miss my friends, i miss the familiar environment, i miss the times i was just happy and living life as i wished. but now its different. i guess this is life. accept it girl.
10:23 PM