Friday, March 31, 2006
today's a happy happy day! ((: hehe i dont know why either. everything went the right way today.went to school to meet the rest of the badminton team to sign the contract,talked crap. oh man im loving the team more and more each day. then had chinese which was freaking boring and was playing puzzle bubble on the gc and playing bingo with meryl and boon. pamela was sleeping throughout. hehe went for a short tour with boon during the 5 mins break and ((: . anyway had lit lecture!! ((: hehe nice lecture talking to jessie. then had break and had to go see mdm shalini for the pre u seminar thing and i was talking loads of crap throughout cause she didnt allow me to look at the speech i wrote so not much substance but i got in for the 12 and 13 april thing! ((: had break then lit, econs and then end of school! ((: went to meet joanna and haowen and went down to tampines sports hall with song yao and two j2s. had friendly match with sji. the rest of the team were already there. anyway yeah played a few matches and then after that , had debrief and the whole team went for dinner, farewell dinner for louis and alex who will be going to the army on fri! haha training's been really fun with them! went to tampines mall and ate ramen. its damn cool to have the whole badminton team having dinner together! bunz james and yen kiat came after road relay for the dinner. ate and talked a lot of crap.haha nadia and her plan all. haha and it was really great talking to marie. never talked to her so much in detail ever before. my ever nicest senior! hehe i know so much things about her now! and she knows stuff about me! then some guys left to go play lan and the rest of us waited for joseph to eat finish then home! i love the badminton team man! ((: they're the reason why i dont wanna join anything else and whatever i do, its for the team. even joanna agrees with me. badminton is so nice! i've never been in such a nice team before! ((: everyone's so so nice and so fun to talk to ! im looking forward to training ! ((: hehe
what you said totally made my day although you didnt say it to me but it got through to me((:
11:15 PM
Thursday, March 30, 2006
yesterday:
went to ij primary in the morning at 7.45 am for the prefects' investiture. went to the general office and got ready my speech. hehe i only practised it twice. then waited for mrs bheam to arrive and we were both invited to go up to the hall. hehe it feels quite good with people escorting you up. when we reached the hall, they stand and welcomed us. haha it feels good to be guest of honour. but it felt really really weird when the emxee went "good morning ms petrina tan our guest of honour..." hehe i think they thought i was super old or something .anyway yeah germaine, ms teo and jessica were there too! the ceremony continued with school song followed by presentation of badge to head and vice head then it was principal's speech and then two other speeches. then it was my turn! super scary!!haha i think i fumbled during the speech and i think i bored them! haha then i gave out the ties to the p4s and p5s! ((: hehe they were so cute when they shook my hand! haha yeah then there were videoslides and presentation and lastly when they sang the ij song, i felt rather touched! joined them in it as they put their arms around each other. it really brought back memories. just 5 yrs ago i was on the stage receiving my badge. time passes really quickly! had refreshments and caught up with many teachers! ((:
then i went back to cj for econs lecture. i looked like some idiot wearing the blazer! hehe oh then had training and it was the worst training we had so far! but it was quite heartening cause we knew we were doing it as a team and for the team. had debrief by mr liu and the j3s then training ended.
today: worst day ever. didnt finish my tutorials and had to rush through before every single lesson. plus i had morning run today and mass pe. today was just a bad day! luckily i didnt get detention for anything. theres training tmw and im dreading sprinting! but we're all going out for dinner as a whole team tmw ! ((:its friday finallly!
6:36 PM
Saturday, March 25, 2006
the second week in cjc proved to be better and i hope it gets even better. luckily there's boon pamela meryl christy gomez in class if not i'll prob die. lessons were not bad as in i paid attention during class surprisingly and did all my homework.but the uniform still loooks bad. haa. anyway there's nothing much that happened just that i was really looking forward to friday! haha oh i went for badminton training and the people there are nice esp the seniors. well there's only 3 j1s and the j1 boys are nice too! haha so im staying in badminton until anything crops up. but for now i need a backup cca.went to watch my girl and i with augustine today after school and then walked a whole load cause aileen wanted to meet me for dinner and she took damn long to come cause of peter choo! and augustine and i ended up walking from cine to wheelock and back to somerset after dinner. anyway its fri! oh oh there was attire check this morning and i didnt get caught for anything! hehe. oh wells im tired for now.
i think i said the wrong thing
12:38 AM
Sunday, March 19, 2006
lunch after mass today at wisma with the tans. my uncle asked me how cjc was and i told him not that great and i still like acjc better but told him probably cause its only been one week there and he started asking me about the sji guys there. haha told him who was in cj and all haha he was commenting on each of them and it was pretty funny. hah its kinda cool to have an uncle who knows your friends better than you do. anyway he told me stuff that i think is really useful to me. ((:
but im still dreading school tmw. i hope its gonna turn out good. and now im still thinking of what to write in my speech! what am i gonna tell them about my experience and all! okay off to write my speech and clear my room.
5:55 PM
Friday, March 17, 2006
left the house around 4pm, went to toa payoh interchange to meet jeremy and then went to school together for our combined sji-ij prefects' camp.went there and saw everyone! ((: so nice seeing all of them again!! and i felt so welcomed by all my prefects as they shouted a hi or gave me a hug! ((: hehe i think they were all shocked to see me and jeremy there. haha the sji guys were like shocked to see jeremy there too. anyway they were playing csi and so we both walked around to see how the all the groups were doing and also to see everyone! this camp was like flooded with sji guys, our ij girls were outnumbered! but anyway yeah walked around, went to the different stations and laughed at them as they went about doing their tasks. haha we were looking for agung cause we didnt see him at all ! hah but found him in a classroom. oh when we were at roderick's station, there were 3 groups already there so both of us did one group haha made them cat walk partnering each other! hah was super fun! ((: hehe. walked alot!!! when csi ended, they were gathered and told the whole story! haha super cool la the story. went into the performing arts studio and they showed photos of the day's camp. laughed at the photos and then it was time to close for the day. seeing everyone laughing at all the stuff today, i knew my juniors had done a good job in organising the camp, sji did a great job too and im proud of them! (: had closing prayer by mr jiao and ms teo. talked to ms teo about the primary school invest. glad she's going so i wont feel so odd and introed her to jeremy and she was like "so nice to see both the head prefects here!" after they proceeded to take photos, jeremy and i left. walked to the interchange then he went back to hostel and i went to town to meet twins+marianne for dinner to celebrate the twins'birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY corrine+cherlyn!! (: took loads of photos then home!
i sense something happening.i dont know.its just this feeling that comes to me.but i know it cant come true because of you.its just not right.but i love talking to you.i enjoyed the day i went out with you.
11:30 PM
this hols have been fun and nice ((: its the best march hols i've ever had i dont know why. haha. guess i've straightened out my thoughts and figured it wouldn be good harping on what cannot be changed and i should just live each day happily (:
tues:HAPPY DAY 1
went out with my besties aileen and amelia! ((: hahah we had dim sum for lunch at crystal jade, shopped at bugis villiage but we were so sad cause the shops only opened after two. walked around bugis area cause we were sick of town okay maybe amelia and i only. haha then we got bored and decided to go marina sq!((: happy day!
wed:HAPPY DAY 2
went out with augustine. had lunch, walked a lot, went with him for dental and walked to toys r us cause his dental was near there, sat down, talked a lot then he bussed home with me (: hah he's super nice to talk to!! ((:
thurs: HAPPY DAY 3
went out with mommy! went to buy uniform.saw david on the way. then went to town! mummy had to go see the doctor in tanglin shopping centre then we wanted to watch movie but then it was kinda late so home!
fri: HAPPY DAY 4
out with mommy to watch movie! then gonna go prefects camp with jeremy! ((: and then its dinner with the twins and marianne and huayshan!! ((:
haha i seriously cant remember what i did on mon. but oh wells. hahah oh happy days! ((: wahah im a happy girl today! ((: off to write letters to my juniors!
11:31 AM
Monday, March 13, 2006
talking to tommy just now was relieving. relieving to know that someone feels the same way as me. we're going through this shit and at least we know we're not the only ones. roars. i wanna go back to the good old times...amanda sims beatrix steffi charmaine and all . im missing you all loads..
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1:29 AM
Sunday, March 12, 2006
a week in cjc just passed and all i can say is i miss acjc and i wanna go back. i regret putting cj before acjc. roars. orientation wasnt as great as i thought it would be and we got our classes already. i dont know. it just feels weird in cj. i dont know why. i thought it would be home to me but i guess i was wrong. i get to see my closest friends but yet things are different. i dread going school every day and i cant help but feel so sore over it. my class 1t33 is supposedly the class that alot of people wanna come but i guess im not used to it yet. i hope i do though. there's meryl christy pamela there and charmaine just appealed out. roars. i dont know. i'd rather SB1 now. went for rockefellaskank last night and saw all the ij-acjc people and i miss them so much. sat with them and started talking a whole load about acjc. roars. stayed over at amelia's with aileen. had fun talking with them. haha i love them loads man. there's so much we can talk about and amelia and i have the same opinions on most things! we went to island creamery and ate ice cream! ((:
my life's in a mess now. no longer have a sense of direction and i really dont know . God grant me the strength to persevere and to hold on. im giving up on everything. i know i cant but its hard. please grant me a miracle. please help me to make do with what i have now. please help me to carry on. please.
12:16 AM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
its a new beginning for me again tomorrow. i hope its gonna turn out good. im scared actually. scared of what awaits me. im gonna have to start all over again, make new friends, make new classmates, have a sense of belonging towards cjc. but i guess it's gonna be easier than the first time i went to acjc where everything was so new , the cultture and the whole environment.at least tmw will be much more familiar and im looking forward to it yet scared. i hope everythings gonna turn out fine and i will eventually like it and have an attachment to it like i did in ij.but ah im scared. these few days i often think to myself maybe i should have stayed in acjc and not move over to cjc and i was thinking what mr pang said to me that my reasons to go to cjc was irrational because my main reasons were because its a natural thing for ij girl to move over to cjc and also because of affliation and stuff.and now im beginning to get what he said. but yet i still hold my grounds that i should move over to cj because i still think i would be more at home. i think im gonna enjoy myself in cjc. theres gonna be mass again! ((: oh wells. i'll pray that i made the right decision and i know God has his plans for me and He will guide me on the right path.
went for mass this morning and then lunch. and i got my phone ((: going to sentosa later to pick my sis and her jap friend up then we're off to mount faber! ((: her jap friend's staying over till wed and then she's flying back to japan! yay fun time later ((:
3:58 PM
Saturday, March 04, 2006
today was good good ! (: went out with amanda to town had lunch watched munich, we managed to get in!! ((: and then shopping! she's so sweet my gosh! i love her so much!! ((: its so nice talking to her about everything and she's like my bestest friend in ac besides sims and aileen. omg im gonna miss her so much. felt is esp at the busstop when we said bye cos we knew we werent gonna see each other often anymore and we're not gonna go for classes together anymore, not gonna piss lao shi off so much, not gonna go toilets so often together, not going for math class with that nice old teacher. oh my.. these few days are so emo. anyway im glad i got to know her and all the memories we shared. i love you loads amanda lim yue fen!! (((:
i dont know why but im beginning to dislike you, dislike you for the way you act, for the way you seem so nice yet you're not because you go on hurting people. aileen said stuff which made me began to wonder why i even liked you. i guess she wanted me to move on and stop harping on whats not gonna be there again. you arent the person i knew before , the person i fell for , the person i thought was who i need.
12:35 AM
Thursday, March 02, 2006
okay so hanyang helped me check and i got cj!! alright talked to clarissa on the phone just now for a long time and she kinda made me apprehensive about going to cj now, telling me there's no more girl's team for badminton and something about the person in her class also but nevermind i've got a feeling that im gonna like it in cj. but im kinda missing my class especially after simren msged me this morning to tell me to go back to school straightaway cos claire's got something for me and also after i read michelle's testi ! but oh wells. i've gotta move on. i'll definitely miss lots of stuff in acjc though, like going for morning assembly in the hall singing the school song, going for gp lessons together as a class, math class teasing michelle about her math bf, econs lecture laughing at hussain talking non-stop, milo bottle!! , visit to the cafe to eat waffle w ice cream, going to the library to sleep and everything else! today's such an emo day.roars! but im happy i got cj though.
everything's change and i think im moving on. im trying hard. i once hoped but i guess hope diminishes over time, i hope it will. seeing you in school wasnt what i really needed cause that hurt me more somehow. clarissa said something that made me realise that she understood how i was feeling. why so long? when's it gonna fade away. it hurts so much because disappointment overwhelms. oh wells. move on pet.
but yet its so difficult. i miss the past. i miss ij , i miss my friends, i miss the familiar environment, i miss the times i was just happy and living life as i wished. but now its different. i guess this is life. accept it girl.
10:23 PM
im so irritated. ponned school today cause i came home late last night and was too tired to wake up for school so i decided i'll go to school on fri but guess what there's no school on fri!!! so i cant see my ac friends anymore!! )): no more acjc for me. anyway yesterday was good ! ((: had founder's day and everyone was in the acjc uniform and haha it makes everyone look better! (: the event was boring with all the speeches but laughing with marc at random stuff was quite fun!when it ended, there were coca-cola people downstairs cos they were sponsoring coke lime to everyone and it was just a mass of people drinking coke. oh wells, you prob see this only in ac. anyway so it was our first class outing! ((: beatrix michelle rachael ca cheryl jane shu hui eileen puaymun marc went! ((: though it wasnt even half the class but it was really fun nonetheless. bussed to marche and had lunch! ((: had fun talking during lunch and then we took loads of pictures! shall upload when im not so lazy. haha michelle amanda and i took loads of pics in the toilet! oh oh and amanda gave me 2 things for farewell present, the photo and the box with necklace. she's super sweet!im gonna miss her so so much! )): she's the only non-ij girl that i became close with.
after lunch went to meet aileen amelia and sean.then walked to cine to meet the rest of amelia's class. haha crashed their class yet again. haha they're so nice anyway. bought tickets for big momma's house 2 then went shopping! then at 4 watched the movie. it was super nice! then splitted up and went to holycross for mass!amelia and i were super late! met gerard there too. got home super late so i ponned school today. )): roars ..im off to get 1SB1's presents!
10:59 AM
