Saturday, December 31, 2005
year 2005 is coming to an end in about 7 hours time and i guess that makes me have the urge to blog about it. this year has been really fantastic though it was a really busy and hectic year for me with the olevels, heading the prefectorial board,cca and other stuff. but it has been the most memorable year for me throughout my ten yrs in ij. this year was not about making friends but building up the friendship with the rest of the class, prefects and cca pple.this year marks the end of my life in ij and its time to move on, move out of my comfort zone to a totally new environment where i'll reach school and realise i dont know most of the people.but im glad i spent this year forging greater ties with my good friends aileen amelia and gretchen.you three have been there for me during my grumpy days which is almost every day! hehe and just listening and having fun together. i've learnt a lot during the year leading the prefects and learning a lot from them and just having fun together as one board.leading u all has been my greatest honour in ij. thanx loads prefects (: though 2005 was not a smooth sailing year for me getting 20 something pts for mid yr exam and getting freaked out by it and other stuff too but the obstacles made me an even stronger person and taught me so many stuff. this year wasnt a totally happy year for me too but i guess i've tried to move on with life and forget those stuff. anyway off to cousin's house for her 21st birthday party then to meet the 4 morons! ((: hehe alright. thanx loads everyone for making my 2005 a fabulous year. thanx ij. i'll really miss ij the most. hope 2006 will be even better ((:
4:35 PM
Friday, December 30, 2005
yesterday and today was really fun. lets start with yesterday.
headed down to aileen's house and then off to costa sands resort. brought all all stuff to decorate the place and then we checked in. the place was real small but we decided to make the best out of it and tried to decorate it asmuch as we could. yup had fun putting up all the stuff like lights ribbons and the cloth. then at around 5 plus aileen's mom brought over the food and around 6 pple started coming! haha yeah everyone entertained each other and it was just like another class outing! and this time it was a rather glam party! haha and this time more pple stayed over! hahah oh then we started playing mahjong and played throughout the night. played till like 5 plus in the morning. oh yeah aileen angie huichun and i went for night walk! was really exciting cos we were playing games on the way and we had forfeits like making aileen sing jimmy gets high out loud ! haha yeah but i didnt manage to find the nice spot. then went back. didnt sleep throughout. then at 6 plus woke the rest up to watch sunrise. so walked to the beach and sat on the bench. haha amelia and i slept through on the bench and didnt get to see the sunrise. anyway yeah checked out and then went home.
today:
went home and slept for a little while before taking rover out for a walk to bishan park to meet warren.my gosh the sun was blazing hot and haha i realise it aint very near to walk to bishan park from my house. was like 15 mins i think. and rover was so lazy on the way there that he just sat down and refused to move so i had to carry him to the park. yep warren was already there and he was watching the pple fish. haha his dog is so cute! his name is bean.haha the legs super skinny. and rover kept barking at him but he doesnt react. he is a showdog btw and he won prizes before! anyway yeah walked him and i was holding on to bean while warren held rover and then rover stepped into a ants' nest and there was ants all over him! it was really scary cos rover kept shaking it off! yeah brought him to the toilet to wash it off but then i couldn remove all then warren brought him to the toilet to wash him and get rid of the rest. bean's fur is really nice like silk!yeah walked around the park and we watched pple fish.oh and we saw an accident taking place. there were like four vehicles involved. damn scary. yeah then spent a long time in the park and decided to go home cos the sky was rather dark. haha we were rather tired already but we still walked back to my house. haha long walk back again but this time with warren and bean. talked a lot on the way back and it was really fun. yep reached back home,sat by the poolside and then warren decided to go home and he walked home from my house. thats like amazingly far! haha. yep anyway i had fun though i was really tired from the chalet.
anyway tmw's gonna be an exciting day again. cousin's 21st birthday dinner then meeting up with aileen and the rest for countdown! ((: roars 4 days more. 4 days more to sis coming back ((: but... four days more to school. roars!
9:37 PM
Thursday, December 29, 2005
class chalet later on. going to aileen's house in about two hours time.hope everything will turn out well. im so sleepy. dont feel like going later actually. i actually woke up at 7am to bring rover for a walk. oh man. haha thats an accomplishment.his hair is growing finally! anyway im really bored now. no one to play with me bejeweled. oh wells. east coast later!maybe i'll see the nice spot tommy was talking about. oh and i got to talk to sherwyn today! ((: he's coming back on the first week of feb!((:
11:25 AM
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
met melia and aileen in town at 11 to plan for the chalet cum party. oh my. we shouldnt have this in the first place. all the hassle in planning buying and stuff. roars. anyway we were so grumpy today that we all were either laughing madly or sounding like we were scolding each other! haha. we ate at food republic and planned the whole stuff, what to get etc then off we went to spotlight. when we reached spotlight, ribbons there were so expensive so went chinatown instead and we didnt buy anything cos cloth there was so expensive too..haha so we went to eat muachee. haha mad pple going all the way to chinatown to eat muachee. oh yeah!! while we were walking out of the mrt, shawn called me from behind! haha he was like "pet!" haha yeah got a shock! then turns out he was meeting the rest of the tans!! hahahhaha i saw all of them! haha they were kinda shocked to see me!! haha so nice seeing them. they were out to chinatown to bring the two jap girls around. yep. haha anyway we went back to spotlight, spent a whole load of time there and decided to go eat at gelare first. had ice cream waffle with amelia! ((: then went back to spotlight to buy 13metres of cloth. andhome. oh my. haha bus ride home with aileen was as usual funny and nice!! hahaha talking to aileen makes me laugh a whole load. hahah was talking to her about everything and anything! hahaha laughed the whole bus ride. anyway im bored of blogging.till then.
9:26 PM
Sunday, December 25, 2005
christmas was well spent with family.went last minute christmas shopping in the afternoon with mom and dad and we bought the cousins' presents and i bought my clothes for mass. oh and i bought my present for gift exchange! (: had our usual christmas dinner with the tan family! ((: but this yr we had other people too.. haha the future in laws! ((: dinner was at bernie's house as usual and it was kinda nice having dinner with the tans again. ((: but this yr there were only 6 cousins. anyway yeah it came to gift exchange after dinner! haha we were all excited to see who picked us!i picked jason and jason picked me too! he gave me a ripcurl handbag! (: yeah then got my other presents from aunts and uncles((:. then we went home and got changed and off to church to meet the tans again! christmas mass was nice and crowded as usual but this yr didnt have pageant only had carolling. mass ended at around 1 plus then home!
oh today went to visit grandaunt cos she wasnt feeling well and didnt go for the family dinner yesterday. then it was home. i bathed rover today!!!hahaha achievement! haah he was splashing water at me! but i managed to bathe him in the end! haha put him in the bath tub so he couldnt run around.
im starting to love life more each day. perhaps its the change of perception towards life or maybe its the lessons learnt over the years. but im happy and thats all that matters! (:
6:19 PM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
today was rather fun.day out with my parents. went to many places and we were so tired after that. ah i feel like an only child nowadays cos bro's at school and sis is in canada. haha its quite fun actually. and i bought a bag for school! (: oh yeah we went to the nursery just now and the plants were so nice! haha anyway its four days to christmas!!! (: hehe its christmas dinner tmw with the three morons aileen gretchen and clarissa. haha the fourth moron amelia lee qiu yan is not back yet! hahah so she wont get her present!! lol we're so mean. hehe cant wait for gift exchange tmw!! haha my darlingboyfriend aileen is supposed to give me a present and im supposed to give her one cos we both got each other's name. hahahahha im so excited to open it!! hehe aileen, you're supposed to get me a cartier ring and propose to me! haha she's so cute la. my future school mate!! (: im a happy girl nowadays. haha maybe its just the festive season. gonna get my boyfriend's present tmw! expensive taste u have aileen seah aining!!!
11:34 PM
here are some of the pics of our class night walk along orchard road to suntec! (:
being retarded!
reached our final destination! ben and jerry's in suntec! (:
12:36 AM
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
there's nothing interesting to blog these days. anyway went out with the twins and huay shan today. went to watch santa's slay and the movie was only like 1 hour 10 mins! we were like what ? thats all? anyway yeah had lunch before that and we were talking a lot . hahah it was rather interesting cos we got all hyped up and interested in knowing stuff. anyway the four of us are going to totally different jcs. cherlyn is going tjc corrine is going njc and huay shan is going vjc. oh wells. yeah then after the twins left at 6 plus, huay shan and i walked around. hahashe's so cute. she's so excited about going school next yr! anyway, its 13 days to school reopening. ): cant wait for christmas though with the tan family! ((: cant wait for all of them to come back from US! havent had our usual family lunches and church together on sundays!
its funny how time passes and memories of what happened in the past seem to fade away and we are so indifferent towards what happened which we otherwise was feeling so much for it back then.but yet,some things remain in our hearts forever.
10:53 PM
Sunday, December 18, 2005
yesterday i went to curl my hair! haha curly hair i have now like prom. hope it stays for long this time since the person steamed it. church today then lunch at spore poly then home. went town with mummy today and ohmygosh we got stuck in the human jam along the underpass towards taka. it was like one step stop then another step. was so irritated by then and everyone just kept blocking the way with prams or were just walking too slow. yup then home cos mummy had to be home to dress up for the wedding. home alone now cos mom dad and bro went for my godbro's wedding which i didnt wanna go. oh wells. rover to accompany me.
7:07 PM
Friday, December 16, 2005
most times, we are unable to accept the truth, the truth which is not what we wanted it to be. most times we try to ignore or try to be optimistic and think things will take for a change.but ultimately, that leads to more pain because our hopes get higher and the disppointment is greater. we feel insecure in times of sadness and we try to live in self-delusion that tomorrow will be much better, that tomorrow maybe things will go the way we want. but most times , we are faced with disppointment because we hoped for too much. maybe we should just accept things as it is. but it is difficult indeed. the pain takes time to go away but still no matter how long, it has left an impact , a scar on your life and no way can u remove it. perhaps it is why we have regrets. regrets as to why we allowed it to happen and we often wonder if we could turn back time, would we have done something different? back then i wouldn for it created beautiful memories but now as i think back, maybe i would because then it wouldnt hurt so much now.
10:46 PM
acjc it shall be. posting's out. surprises here and there. the dread to go ac is still there. it was a sudden change of impression i guess. i was so excited about going there but now i really dont wanna go anymore. amelia and gretchen got into cj and clarissa too.so many pple going cj. i wanna go cj too. should have listened to everyone. talked to jean just now and she asked me go cj too. roars. shall stop whining about it already. oh wells , at least aileen and sims are going ac too. )):
1:32 PM
Thursday, December 15, 2005
took train to city hall to meet meiying then trained to pasir ris and went to downtown east to meet mr tan. he was eating the 18 dollars fried rice. madness. anyway yeah we met him and he was playing xbox. :/ haha 33 yr old playing xbox! yeah anyway meiying and i went to arcade while waiting for him to finish playing his game. haha had fun playing daytona and the basketball game! played until we were so tired and perspiring! haha played bishi bashi too! then we went to check out the availability of the chalet. there wasnt any left on the 31st. plans disrupted. our wham-bam-glam party! haha yeah then mr tan said book earlier one but i was being stuborn and didnt want! hahah cos then we cant count down to the new yr! hahah and he called me a dinosaur!decided to book chalet for the 29th instead. cant count down anymore! anyway yeah then booked already he sent us to town cos he wanted to go zara to shop so we went town too!walked a lot and then finally sat down at bk to eat. oh we saw mark chay!! (: lol anyway im tired now.
6:23 PM
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
woke up really early today at 5.45 am cos i was supposed to go for mass and have breakfast with gideon. it was so early and i was thinking about going back to sleep. haha but i decided not to be a pig and go. so he picked me up at 6.15 and then off to church. haha we were being idiots for taking the hymm booklet when they dont sing at morning mass! lol . yeah went for mass then he drove down to adam road place to have breakfast. yep was really tired then he drove me home after that. came home and the tv man came and installed the tv. went to town with mummy then home to sleep.
i hate being unable to say things that are really inside and get pissed off because i keep everything to myself. sometimes i just need someone to be there and listen and not talk at all. but sometimes that seems impossible.
9:54 PM
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
aileen came by my house then off we went to jurong to ice skate!!! (: met meiying at jurong entertainment centre then ate lunch then off we went! it was super ex la cos we only had 3 pple instead of four. so yeah rented our skates and off we went! haha funny experiences on the way like how the little boy and little girl who are siblings kept falling down and they kept grabbing us when they were gonnna fall. hah the little girl grabbed aileen and aileen flipped and fell. and she was so cute cos she kept asking if aileen was alright and when meiying asked her if she was alright she said no. yeah then the boy also kept falling down and he's damn cute la.haha and while the three of us were skating together, we went so fast and there were so many pple blocking our way that i thought i was going to lose my balance so i grabbed the person beside me and it was an ah beng! haha he was like oi! cos he wasshocked that i grabbed him. hahah i was so embarrased. meiying kept laughing. anyway yeah had loads of fun skating. havent skated since june! wanna go there with ning xin!! its so nice just skating and skating.makes you so carefree. anyway yeah after that aileen and i bussed back and we decided to drop by and eat roti prata! haha we were greedy and ordered too much.had stomache after that. haha then went thomson plaza and then off to church for mass! a really fruitful day. ((: gideon is mad! we keep shouting to each other over the phone. lol. and start laughing at each other. alright im tired. tmw's a day home besides in the morning which im supposed to go with gideon then home to wait for the tv to arrive.
oh i've got the eagles award!!! (: and it comes with 150 dollars!! (: coolio. haha i think all the head prefects and vice heads got it too ! im a happy girl today.lol
9:25 PM
class night walk yesterday.met them at six and then waited for pple to arrive and mr tan to come .then we set off! (: walked from lido all the way then walked past taka and took photo with the big christmas tree and then to paragon to take photos again.though not the whole class turned up but we all had fun nonetheless. walked.talked.laughed. past ps and we were all so tired already. haha but we continued, walked past hotel rendevous, old sji then city link! haha FINALLY! lol yeah the christmas tree there was quite nice. yeah then we reached suntec! but so sad ben and jerry's was going to close! the previous monday mr tan and the 5 of us were there at like 10 but it wasnt closing! haha but the person was nice to let us sit and order our ice cream.yeah it was about 10 plus already so we decided to go home. and mr tan sent the same pple home! haha yeah so we walked to his car which was at cityhall. hahha on the way there, there were so many kiddy rides and clarissa meiying and i tried all of them! hahah we were having so much fun squeezing our butts in there! lol! we took pics shall get them from mr tan and post it! hahah walked to his car and it was time for daytona ride again! haha the four of us were laughing about how our previous ride in his car was.sent clarissa then meiying then aileen me then gretchen. anyway im lazy to type more stuff. but anyway ice skating with aileen,meiying and charmaine later! ((:
Dont you cry tonight
I still love you
Dont you cry tonight
Dont you cry tonight
Theres a heaven above you baby
And dont you cry tonight
8:49 AM
Monday, December 12, 2005
my whole leg is filled with rover's saliva. gross! haha he's been grabbing our leg like bolsters cos he wants us to carry him.lol anyway a weekend well spent with mummy and daddy without bro cos he was at christ the king church camp. shopping was really nice yesterday. haha tried looking for the nike bag but realised it was sold out and only coming on mon. everyone's gonna carry that bag. anyway off to centrepoint for lunch later with mummy and her friend and then night walk tonight with the class along orchard to marina sq. school's gonna reopen so soon. argh. posting's on fri. wish i will get my third choice now. argh. whatever la.
10:38 AM
Saturday, December 10, 2005
post convention was yesterday at pasir ris chalet near the beach. took like one and a half hours to get there! super far! but yeah walked there and the catholic high prefects were all there. so many of them! then saw isabella,fang min, alicia and nicole sitting outside so went to talk to them. havent seen bella and fang min since convention!! haha anyway yeah sat around. then ken li called to say she couldnt make it. haha jun how is the funniest! he came all the way from malaysia! took him three and a half hours to get there! okay then choon boon started the bbq and we started eating! (: oh then jasmine and an qing came too. the st nicks juniors couldnt make it.most of my exco couldnt make it too.sji also, only moses and junhow. anyway yeah we sat in the living room and watched school of rock! haha we played heart attack among the five of us before that. quite fun la. haha we played the pregnant one. anyway yeah watched, eat and jun how was supposed to go back to malaysia after that and come back the next morning! so poor thing, he would like reach home at like later than 12 so in the end he decided to stay moses' house. and the two of them were super crap. product of sji! lol they started throwing cards at me! so we just collected as many and started throwing. retarded! haha talked a bit. cath high guys were like having meeting with wayne so we didnt really talk to them. yeah went home around 9.45pm when daddy came to pick me then sent isabella and anqing home . lol got home came online and was on webcam conversation with moses and junhow. lol they were so shocked that i could hear whatever they said cos their side didnt have mike.haha scared them by telling them wahtever they said! lol yeah so we talked on webcam for super long. first time ever talking so long to moses and junhow online! lol junhow was talking on the mike while moses was typing. hahah talked a lot of rubbish. talked till 1 plus am and was so tired already so went to sleep!
this morning, didnt wake up early enough to bring rover down for a walk so mummy brought him down. then we went for novena at 11 am followed by lunch and then to harbour front to look for stuff like television and all. daddy wants to buy the plasma tv to mount on our living room wall.. quite cool la but i was in a grumpy mood so didnt feel like talking at all . yeah then walked around then came home. gonna go out again later.
if there is one thing you could do
is to go back to the past
and not have said all those stuff
which is what is hurting me most now
4:42 PM
Friday, December 09, 2005
had to stay home the whole afternoon and morning cos mom wasnt at home and grandma,grandaunt and granduncle are over at my house. rover's in the cage and he's so poor thing cos he cant come out till they've gone off. and doubt he's gonna come out till his evening walk but i'll be off to post convention so his walk will be short cos mummy's bringing him. poor rover! im gonna play with him tonight! last night was the fifth night sleeping in the hall with rover.haha i think he's enjoying my company cos daddy said he'll slp in the hall instead and let me go into the room but rover started barking ! lol haha he's like a baby! grabs my leg cos he wants me to carry and refueses to let go. yesterday i carried him and sat down and he slept! (: but he's teething i think, keeps biting stuff. i havent been really enjoying the hols except for some days. not in a happy mood nowadays. ): but i shant live life for you but myself.
1:27 PM
Thursday, December 08, 2005
went to town with amelia and aileen today. before that , went with mummy to scotts to have lunch then Guess had sale! (: woah haha the bags were really cheap and everything was on sale ((: yeah then went to meet the aileen at cine and amelia lee was late.we watched pride and prejudice. keira knightly is quite pretty but at some angles she didnt look that pretty. yeah show was pretty good but i prefer the original version still. oh sherwyn called me from australia today! (: haha havent heard from him in a long time. he's coming back in march to serve ns and then going back there again. yeah anyway after the movie, we shopped around to help amelia find clare's present. yeah then we went to the wisma food place to sit down after going to coffee club express. planned the whole new year's eve party thingy. lol had loads of fun planning it and we came up with a lot of crap stuff. hope everyone comes for the party.its supposeed to be a wam-bam-glam party! post convention is tmw and i dont really wanna go. going for the sake of going and making my school look good. roars . its so far too. oh 4/2 : night walk on monday along orchard to marina sq. meet at 6 at lido k. eh u all better come ya? haha im supposed to make this work out.
its so hard to get over it.
not feeling better each day
im trying hard to forget you
but memories still haunt me
10:28 PM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
back from the airport after sending uncle and aunt off. roars. the family's getting smalller. haha on sunday there will only be 6 pple from the usual 14. anyway im beginning to enjoy walks with rover. i can see the other dogs too like the lassie and the schnauzers. the lassie's really nice. i played with it yesterday. its such a pretty dog! (: anyhow, i often wonder why people start to cherish other people only when they're gone. i wonder how people can hurt the person close to them. i wonder how they can forget about the hurt caused and live on with life without turning back to find out how the other's doing. people move on with life and be themselves. but what happens to the people who cant let go of the past, cant let go of memories. why do they always get left behind. some things should not be said at all if it's gonna hurt that person ultimately. whats the point of saying it even if it pleases the person at first but hurts so much later on?
10:15 PM
im waking up ever so early everyday cos i sleep in the hall nowadays and my whole family's up at 7 so i wake up at 7 too. roars. i wanna sleep in my room already. anyway going to harbour front with mummy later to get stuff. hehe rover's so cute when he sleeps. alright shall blog later
All at once
The smile that used to greet me
Brightened someone else's day
She took your smile away
And left me with just mem'ries
All at once
10:02 AM
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
last night was a second night sleeping in the hall. i doubt i can sleep in the room anymore cos if i go in, rover will start barking again. haha he's such a baby! yeah tonight's gonna be a third night.couldnt sleep last night till like 3am,dont know why too i was thinking about stuff that was bugging me. and i had to wake up at 7 to bring him down again. aiyah but he's getting cuter by the day. aileen came over at nine plus to play with him and to watch full house! we watched a dance show too and it was so nice! yeah rover was out of the cage the whole day and he's kinda accustomed to the house already and he just goes about doing his own stuff! oh yeah he peeed at the correct place today! (: lol yeah then he was so cute. daddy likes him already and calls home so many times and ask how he's doing. yeah then whole day watch full house. then it was time to go to the airport to send bernie and family off. going to airport is always a tan family outing. its always like if anyone from the entire family is going overseas, the tans all go and send that person off. haha its funny how we all love going to the airport. yeah then bernie and family left. tmw, my other uncle and aunt are off to new zealand. so its left with my family ): lunch on sunday will be so boring without the tan cousins. oh and after the airport, che felicity and shawn came over to play with rover! haha everyone calls him dopey!! lol he's getting all confused. yeah they played with him like crazy. haha i bet rover must have been damn happy cos there are pple who wanna play with him. haha yeah they just left. okay its another night in the hall. hope i can sleep well. im tired.
11:18 PM
Monday, December 05, 2005
went cycling at east coast park with tommy today. met him at the bus-stop but before that it was raining super heavily but luckily it stopped when we got there! (: we rented our bikes and off we went for two hours! haha we cycled to the other end of the park and like on the way , it was really fun, watching pple blade and laughing at them, then we cycled for super long, thought the path could lead us to changi airport but it didnt! we landed up at safra chalet and if we wanted to go airport we would have to go on the road so we decided to turn back! haha on the way ran into cats and paddled even faster to avoid it. hahah and tommy saw the chicken and said faster! got bird flu! lol ! hahah cos we were next to the bird sanctuary! lol yeah on the way back we stopped by bedok jetty and there were a lot of people fishing there. haha it was really pretty looking at the sea and there were fighter planes flying across too.stayed there for a while and some pple actually caught fishes but the fishes were not nice-looking and were so small. yeah then cycled back to the place where we started.cycling is really nice, u tend to forget whatever was worrying you and just ride peacefully.. yeah we went back to the kiosk and realised there was still time to ride some more so we decided to go the other side! throughout the whole journey, we talked , laughed and yeah just had fun!lol tommy: haha tommy: lky? nice old man! hahha not what u thinking about! haha then after two hours was up, we went to return our bikes. haha our butts were really sore and hhaha we were laughing at how our legs felt soft and felt weird walking !! haha lol yeah then we went to eat, took a long time to decide and in the end we went to this jap place. yeah then talked and talked and after he ate, we left. walked a long way back to the place we came from and went home!anyway i enjoyed today!! (: anyway thank you tommy tan hsien loon! (:
it still hurts a lot
no matter how i try
to put it behind me
and everytime u talk about her now
i know who you're talking about
9:34 PM
Sunday, December 04, 2005
haha okay third post for the day... rover's sleeping so soundly now. just now he only slept for like 10 mins i think... finally he's asleep and not barking or running around like mad.. but its bad news for me cos i think i'll have to sleep in the hall with him cos if not he'll start barking when i go in.oh wells. going cycling tmw! i wanna bring rover but i cant..
11:33 PM
okay second post because rover is sleeping!!! he's so cute!! oh my gosh im in love with him. he's so damn cute! i wanna take a pic of him but im scared he'll wake up!! okay thats enough.
4:21 PM
my dog came over last night and the whole family couldnt sleep at all cos he barked and whined the whole night. he was howling like a wolf also cos he was in the cage. didnt wanna let him go out cos he was gonna pee all over and it was already at night. btw his name is rover and he's a maltese..haha he's rather ugly now cos he just got shaved so he's totally bald now. cant wait for his hair to grow back! yeah well then today we left him in the cage again cos we were going to church and yeah i went shopping with my family today and lunch with the rest of the tans at wisma! bought some stuff and yeah came home and let rover get out of his cage and he was running all over the house like crazy! hahah he's super hyper. he didnt sleep the whole night and was just running in his cage. lol he's damn cute la.. but he's not toilet trained so i keep having to clean his pee and poo and mummy's rather frustrated of having to keep cleaning his poo and keep watching over him.hahah daddy's rather funny cos rover kept pouncing on daddy and hahah daddy kept asking me to put him in the cage but i didnt want. anyway im glad he's here and he can keep me company and keep me out of my sad mood (:
if you were a friend
you wouldn make me sad
3:45 PM
Saturday, December 03, 2005
went to ikea with mummy today. bought some stuff. was looking at bunk beds too cos che wont have a bed when she comes back. im not in the the best of moods lately and even more so today. there are some things which just dont make your day and just make you really down and sad.some things make you wanna just not talk to anyone and just be alone. i've been thinking and been in the reflective mood recently. i guess some things shouldn be said and i didnt meant for it to be brought across but well. perhaps i have been livng in my own world and living in my self-delusion. perhaps.it takes time to get over it. it would be a long time for me. and from now till then..
last night was the most painful night
a mixed of emotions
i guess it didnt mean much to you
but it did to me
alot.
im off to pick my dog up... bye
6:37 PM
Friday, December 02, 2005
i went out with sinyee and ningxin today! (: my juniors in prefects! (: went to watch movie and then walked around and decided to go bk and sit down and saw nicole seren roderick and another guy there! they were planning for ij-sji combined prefects camp next yr. anyway yeah had lots of fun with my two darling juniors today!! (: i think im even closer to them then most of the sec 3 prefects. anyway ms cruz the prefect mistress of ij primary called me and asked if i could be the guest-of-honour for primary school prefects investiture next yr. lol quite weird for me to be goh. but nvm i'll get to go back and see all the young prefects and see all the teachers! (: oh have to give a speech too! havent gone back to pri school in a long while! yay i'll get to see mrs tan! (: alright off to watch tong xin yuan!
im pissed now.super pissed. i just got scolded. hiaz cant be bothered already. tried explaining but it didnt work so yeah. anyway my dog's coming tmw. at least i'll have someone to play with but mummy says she doesnt want it anymore and she's gonna send it back to bernie's house. hope i can find enough reasons for him to stay. how am i supposed to train a dog in one month?! roars and if i dont train him to do his business and all he's gonna go. someone come help me train the dog! im just in a pissed mood now. k bye.
6:47 PM
Thursday, December 01, 2005
a second post for the day.. went to run just now for a continuous 40 mins. just felt like running and i kinda enjoyed it. wanted to swim but couldn and there were kids having swimming lessons so i guess maybe i'll go swim tonight. i think im pulling back from the people around me.. i dont know why either. oh wells. its just these few days, maybe i'll be back to normal in a few days. i've thinking a lot these days too. while i was running , i was just thinking about what happened throughout my life since i was a kid till now. so many things came to my mind..so many regrets.. so many things that i would have done different but i guess you cant change it anyway.but i guess i'v e started to love life more.was reading through the stuff i typed and stored in my phone and realised all the stuff are so negative and pessimistic..maybe its just me ...
perhaps this world is beautiful
but i havent found the beauty in it.
pessimism takes hold of me.
the world is beautiful from the exterior
but i doubt its' inner beauty..
5:52 PM
im awfully tired now cos played badminton at hougang sports hall this morning with wanching cherlyn and her friends.lol getting rusty already. everything's like half court so when it goes over, a smash comes. oh wells had fun nonetheless. oh the monfort pple was training there and i saw jaime wong!! haha he's so cute!ahha he's a small boy btw. still remember him from cheers badminton match. but nathawit is still the cutest! but he wasnt there though. yeah saw them train and realised i kinda miss trainings, all the runnings and all the tension between everyone cos everyone was competing against each other even within the team. haha oh wells. but i prob wont join badminton anymore. but i wanna go back to gong jiao lian to train! okay im bored now. full house time! (: shopping with the tan cousins yesterday was really nice! (: had loads of fun! (: cant wait for christmas dinner and midnight mass! ((: im bored at home now.. mummy went out so im all alone at home, being too lazy to go to amelia's house too. maybe i'll go call veekay, my nice neighbour! (:
i think i love you
2:15 PM
