Friday, August 19, 2005
this week's been a really tiring week with tests and night classes. im really tired but i've gotta move on. i havent finished my revision and im really scared. its not been a good week,im feeling worse than ever. im trying to stay happy cos it wont help if im grumpy. chem test today didnt help. it was the worse ever.fear is getting the better of me. buck up girl. move on. im not feeling good either cos my sister's leaving on monday for canada to study. she's gonna be away for so long. and she's been the closest person to me in the family. i've grown so much closer to her that now when she leaves, the room will feel empty, something will be missing in my life. she's been my source of laughter and sharing my unhappiness. at home, its her who brings the laughter into the family , the one who never fails to perk up everyone. now that she's gone, the house will be so quiet and i will be all alone, but at least i still have my bro. but i will miss her as my room mate, my friend, my confidante, my punching bag, my dearest sister. the past exam we've been studying together, encouraging each other esp during my chinese o's and she was studying for her exams . i did well and so did she, getting on the dean's list. i will remember the every moment we spent together just poking fun at each other, deciding on what clothes to wear for mass every sunday, and shopping together. i will miss the car rides that she gives me and everything, waiting for her to come home if she comes home late so i can talk to her and all. i was just talking to her today and she was telling me that she regretted applying for overseas trip because she will definitely feel homesick. well, that really hit me deep inside and hit me real hard that im really gonna miss her alot. i've been avoiding that fact because i just didnt want her to leave. but now its really time for her to leave. monday is the day where my life will take for a change and her life too. i realy hope this period of time will pass quickly. i cant wait for the day where i will go to the airport to pick her up.sigh..
anyway to u che: though sometimes i may be annoying and spoilt and rude, but i really dont mean it. i really love u alot and i willl miss you loads. the whole family will. these 2 days are really precious. its my last two days where i can see u and then i wont see u for a really long time. but thanks che for everything.love u loads!
9:10 PM