Sunday, July 31, 2005
was rushing through a lot of things just now. from homework to studying. im always rushing through things that i never seem to get anything done properly and done well.perhaps i should take some effort to organise my stuff properly.many times when im in the midst of rushing, i get so irritated and pissed and i vent it on others. its not a good sign. i dont know why. i cant wait for the time where i will have the time for myself. im sick and tired of doing stuff last min. i know its a habit i need to change but.. i dont know. my last min-ness caused me to lose a lot of things, caused me to fail in my role, caused a lot of pple stuff. i cant say much here but perhaps some pple may understand. im in a lousy mood now. shall sleep. argh. there's physics test tmw followed by night study and then chem test the next. when can we really have time to study without having so many tests to study for!
10:55 PM
Friday, July 29, 2005
havent blogged for a super long time. anyway so many things happened the past few weeks. many tests and my cousin's wedding ! yeah shall blog about that later. it was just super nice! anyway had physics practical today. it was a mock paper and it was horrendous cos the u shaped glass thing dropped and broke, causing paraffin oil to spill all over my test paper. but luckily the lab techinician was so nice to help me clear up. (: yeah but got all my readings right. im full now. grandma just cooked for me something nice! (: im tired now. later still have to go back for lessons! ): alright shall talk about the wedding!!
it was on saturday! so my family and bernie's family were supposed to reach there at 8 cos the groom was arriving at 9.30 and all the cousins were supposed to make him do diffcult stuff before we let him in. got all changed and went to my uncle's house ! (: entire tan family was there already. yeah then waited for the groom to come! yeah when he came, we made his bestman and his other friends answer questions about him and if they couldnt get it right, we made him pluck 5 strands of hair off his leg! haha lol yeah then in the end he came in then he had to go through another round of torture before he could go into the room! yep, then after the tea ceremony it was time to go to church for the mass! (: went there earlier with bernie cos we were reading the prayers of the faithful ! haha during the mass, fr iggy was super funny and made the whole mass kinda nice. yeah then bernie and i were so scared when we went up andi read so fast that when we were up there, she hit me behind to slow me down. haha yeah then at the end of the mass, my cousin sang a song for her husband! yep kinda touching! hehe yeah then after mass had reception and all. nice talking and meeting the canossian sisters again!! havent seen them for a really long time. saw mark lim, nick guan and all there too! hehe kinda fun. took loads of pictures with everyone. yeah then after that went home to rest and get changed for the dinner!!!
my family left the house at 4 to go to the salon to get our hair done! haha che curled her hair and looked like goldilocks!then rushed to the hotel to get changed for dinner and to practise the items. rushed all the way there cos cousins were all waiting for us.yepp went to the room and changed and dressed up.ahhaha woah the 7 cousins looked so good! all the 6 girls wore sarong kebayas and we all looked fabulous!! hehe took loads of pictures then practised our song!! k then at 7 we all went down, talked abit to the other pple and i saw mrs alex!! hehe mom was doing the registration then i saw mrs alex's name. yeah then we went in after meeting lots of pple! yep, then bernie's family and my family sat together at the VIP table! ahah so fun la! yeah food arrived and all then in between we went out to practise our song and at 10pm, we performed for everyone ! heehe the song was specially for my cousin! she was really pretty that night!!! (: she wore the kebaya and a cheong sam and the dress she wore at mass! the performance was nice!! (: haha yeah then after the whole dinner, the cousins went back to the hotel room to sleep!! it was like super fun la!! there wasnt space for all of us so bernie and her sister slept on the floor and the other cousin too! haha then we started talking about our childhood days together, it was really fun laughing at the stupid things we did together like how we played games that we invented and games which we kept on playing like having a funfair together! hehe yeah will never ever forget the tan cousins camp that we had every yr!! yeah anyway i love my cousinS!!the next morning, we all went for breakfast buffet and charged it all to the room so my cousin would have to pay! hehe yep, good breakfast then after that mass! okay anyway i really enjoyed myself! it was definitely an occasion that brought the whole tan family even closer cos we met each other more!! on usual days only meet once a week for mass and lunch but this time it wasnt just once a week! okay shall stop here. im off to school!
4:37 PM
Saturday, July 16, 2005
supposed to meet amelia aileen gretchen at cityhall mrt at 7.ooam. the most unearthly time of the day. yes but in the end i woke up at 7.15 when aileen called me and i got a shock of my life. supposed to wake up at 5.30 but i was so tired cos family meeting at my cousin's house ended at like twelve plus! haha yes immediately rushed to change and daddy sent me to millenia walk luckily. yepp. had breakfast at some restaurant and the 2 of them were complaining about how early it was.haha its like going to school la! haha yeah then talked abit then went to suntec macs to study! yes it was pretty good did a lot of work and yepp had fun with the 3 morons! (: hehe yeah its nice spending time actually studying together (: must do it more often ya? yepp, then mom called and my whole family came down to suntec for lunch at sizzler then daddy sent me to toa payoh to meet the convention pple for study time! yeah met nicole , raymond, choon boon, janis and alicia then went to macs to study cos lib was super crowded. haha it was quite fun. did work and talked to them. yeah they wanna have weekly study sessions together with the rest of the org comm. yippee! anyway, today is the one month anniversay of CONVENTION! hiaz.. sad.. how i wish that day would not have ended! :( oh wellls it was fun nonetheless. okay im off to watch tv.
8:13 PM
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
decided to blog again after reading poon's entry. oh wells,sji's band concert. it was good but what i was impressed by was not the music i heard though partly, but it was the joesphian spirit that touched me. towards the end of the performance, the part where they cheered and all, i was so touched by how much they felt towards the school. they sang with gusto and pride for the school as they said their josephian cheers. perhaps i felt it even more cos the alumni band was standing in front of me. but it was the part where they were asked to stand and sing their school song. that part touched me the most. in ij, probably when u ask the girls to stand up for school song, they would make funny noises but in sji, it was different, they didnt make funny noises at all, instead they sang it loud and proud ! i could see in their faces how much sji meant to them and the loyalty that stays in them forever. how i wish ij was like that too. not like im very loyal to the school, but at least i wear my uniform proudly. sometimes when i look at how the girls make fun of pple who wear their belts at their waist, i start to wonder how much they feel towards the school. its no wonder why ex girls like mrs mag low places so much emphasis on the way the girls wear their uniforms andcarry themselves. okay back to sji renaissance, yeah so thats about it. hmm, i guess sji really instills in their boys a sense of belonging thats why they feel so much for it. even as i hear my uncles and my father talking about their alma mater, i really wonder how come they feel so much for it.oh wells, but none the less, i still think i feel a lot for my own school as well. i'll always be a true blue ij girl. after mon's general meeting, im gonna miss ijprefects a lot. if i wasnt in it, i guess i wouldn feel so much.
both of u totally changed my impression of u both. i dont know why u both did that. im shocked by what u both did.but nonetheless, i feel sad too. cos i just lost 2 friends whom i treasured and trusted.
8:55 AM
didnt go to school today.i've got a cut on my cornea. all cos of my stupid contacts. hahha i shall write my whole experience. last morning, woke up, put in my contacts and the immediate effect was my eye had sizzling effect, couldnt even open it.so immediately splashed with loads of water, then tried to take it after much pain. yepp. then thought it would be okay after a while, but when i got to school, the pain was excruciating, even worse then in the morning. was practically crying during chinese cos tears just came down so i went to slp. yeah was praying hard 1.50 pm would come so i could go home. yepp.s then cabbed home and went to slp, hoping it would get better but it didnt. couldnt open my eye so i called mummy and she told me to go see my uncle who was closing his clinic in 15 mins time.so rushed there and he checked my eye then was shocked that actually its not my solution but its cos i got a cut on my cornea! yeah then he called my mummy, asked his nurse to call the national eye centre to make appointment then he took me to mount alvernia! haha in the car he was like, as your uncle i forbid u to wear contact leases ever again! haha then we started talkingabout angelina jolie and how bernie looks like olinda cho.yeah so at mount alvernia, found my way to blk b and waited for my turn. then went in and the doctor showed my dad the cut on my eye and all, and told me how to take care of my eye! yepp .. then collected my drops and went home! haha spent my whole day on my stupid eye! roars!!! now it still hurts. but im sick of slping already. ROARS!!!i cant wear contacts for the next 3 days!!!
8:42 AM
Monday, July 04, 2005
went for aviva open again yesterday. my sis and i went like 1 hour plus plus earlier but the queue was alraedy freakin long! yepp then went in.. didnt get the best seats but it was quite good compared to davidson's . yeah 5 matches that day. the really good ones were the singles and chen hong lost . roars! i didnt want taufik to win! oh wells anyway , the rest of the matches were relatively boring so we went out to eat and bought more yonex shirts. saw loads of pple! like my badminton team pple, the sc team and loads more. yeah then ate at no signboard seafood after that with my fam and home! gosh im so tired. my phone's screwed. just sent to the nokia centre to get it repaired so im phoneless. oh wells. and they said they might have to delete all my msgs. argh. all those msges meant so much and now it has to be deleted. buti guessed they dont mean that much to me anymore. i dont know.its probably time to give up.
4:18 PM
Saturday, July 02, 2005
went for aviva open today. (: had loads of fun there. yeah went there around 12.30 cos my sis bugged me and made me go so early but i guess it was good to go early cos when we arrived, there was already a queue of pple waiting to go in and when the doors opened, everyone rushed in! ahhaa ok yeah didnt get the best seats but at least to the front. yeah then match began! (: first was mixed doubles then all the games went on. haha then suddenly cherlyn and moses msged me saying i was on tv and they zoomed in on my face. and cherlyn even asked me to re tie my hair. hahah lol i was stoning but oh wells. yepp. matches went on... was quite bored during the middle so che and i went out to eat something and we bought shirt! (: yeah went back in then was trying to find where david was but couldnt. haha too many pple. then the crescent girls beside us were so darn irritating kept shouting like nobody's business. lol then found out they were david's friends. yepp.. then came the last match!!! lin dan and taufik hidayat!!!! omg! first set taufik won! then thought lin dan would win the second set but he lost!! argh! so annoying. oh wells. had loads of fun with my sister today. she's hilarious especially when she waited for taufik to come out so that she could take photo with him and kept insulting my photography skills. yepp so she got her photo taken! im tired alraedy. night
10:49 PM
Friday, July 01, 2005
youth day celebrations today. mass in the morning and then followed by recess. anyway didnt wear prefects shirt to school today but after much reprimanding and scolding just by going into 4/2 classroom, i didnt have a choice but to wear. not that i was proud to wear but just that i didnt feel like wearing. oh wells. but im glad i did. cos this youth day would probably be the last time of the year where i will see all my prefects wearing it too. im proud of u prefects. yepp, all my entries seem to be about prefects and only prefects. but its cos i know prefects is what im gonna remember most vividly after i step down. and now even though i havent stepped down yet, i wish that the months wouldnt pass by so quickly, i still want to be part of this whole board.not that im gonna be out of it, but its just i'll miss organising stuff and attending events and doing duties and being so everly active in it. but whatever it is, i know that i was part of it and thats what all it matters . thank you prefects for my 2 yrs in the prefectorial board so memorable.
something has changed.
maybe it wouldn have if something didnt happened
im not sure if its real
im starting to get scared
will everything repeat itself?
but i know for sure, the storyline wouldn change
ignorance will solve everything.
but its difficult when u cant help it
10:32 PM