Saturday, May 14, 2005
woke up at 6 plus today feeling very bad. stomach felt queer and just felt like vomitting. i vomitted in the end. but still decided to go for pre convention cos i had the money for the food with me and other reasons too. yepp. reached there then started with the performance rehearsal. all their performances were hilarious! its was good especially sji's. they were super pro la. didnt wanna dance at first cos my stomach was really killing me but it became much better after a while. thanx prefects for constantly asking if i was alright! (: felt so touched hehe especially ken li asking me if i wanted a sweet she would go look for one.yeah then pre convention started! all the presentation and all then the performance. then everything was over. reception time! we were just sitting around. then went back to auditorium for debrief .turned out to be a thrashing session. oh gosh. it looked very bad on our school's part cos everyone's back on track and participative except our school. but there's nothing we can really do already. everyone's enthusiasm is dying down even siti and i. i just dont feel like there's something i can do for convention. its just us doing what they ask us to do. furthermore, there are other stuff too.
came home and slept all the way till now. fever went up to 38.7. mom freaked out. yepp. dont know whats wrong with me . hiaz life's screwing up real badly.
to you: im just very disappointed in you. i judged everything wrongly. u seem like everything's fine with u and u dont seem affected at all. what u said previously , did u just say it for fun. i just ignore u everytime, trying to pretend everything's fine. but sometimes i just cant, its too difficult because there are just some memories i cant let go of.
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